How will u go Down in someone's history?

While everyone is watching t.v i've decided 2 blog via iPhone.Not easy. :)
Woke up early, decided to have my coffee by the Atlantic ocean alone.
Atlantic City is beautiful.

Today I remember asking

if I am significant enough in someone's life history.

I laughed to myself and answered "perhaps not'"

Afterwards, I decided not caring is the best thing to do :)

2010

Hey all, would like to wish you a great 2010.
May you spend your new year with your family and perhaps loved ones.

I'll be jetting off to States and will be spending mine with family.
Yup my fifth.

You can catch me on any of my blogs but I have a feeling my mobile blog would be a breeze. Almost forgot I had one since 2008 til recently.Will put it among my blog add on the side .
http://riffsraffs57.blogspot.com

Will leave you guys with a suitable song to end 2009 (at least for me)

Till then don't forget to be a Fabulous Individuals in 2010.
I'll see you next year

Peace out & God Bless!



"Only Ones Who Know"

In a foreign place, the saving grace was the feeling,
That it was a heart that he was stealing,
Oh he was ready to impress and the fierce excitement,
The eyes are bright he couldnt wait to get away,
I bet the juliet was just the icing on the cake,
Make no mistake no,

And even if somehow we could have shown you the place you wanted,

Well I'm sure you could have made it that bit better on your own,
And I bet she told a million people that she'd stay in touch,
Well all the little promises they dont mean much,
When theres memories to be made,
And I hope you're holding hands by new years eve,
They made it far too easy to believe,
That true romance cant be acheived these days,

And even if somebody could have shown you the place you wanted,
Well I sure you could have made it that bit better on your own,
You are the only ones who know

Sceneries

Dia menciptakan langit tanpa tiang yang kamu melihatnya dan Dia meletakkan gunung-gunung (di permukaan) bumi supaya bumi itu tidak menggoyangkan kamu; dan memperkembang biakkan padanya segala macam jenis binatang. Dan Kami turunkan air hujan dari langit, lalu Kami tumbuhkan padanya segala macam tumbuh-tumbuhan yang baik.

Surah Luqman 31: 10

At Taubah

O you who believe (in Allâh's Oneness and in His Messenger (Muhammad)! Verily, the Mushrikûn (polytheists, pagans, idolaters, disbelievers in the Oneness of Allâh, and in the Message of Muhammad) are Najasun (impure) . So let them not come near Al-Masjid-al-Harâm (at Makkah) after this year, and if you fear poverty, Allâh will enrich you if He will, out of His Bounty. Surely, Allâh is All-Knowing, All-Wise.9:28


My understanding :
The first bar against non Muslim entrance in holy land started way back since Rasullulah time. It has even been in place on the 9th hijrah. So the visa validity even exists in Rasulullah’s time!

Do you think that you shall be left alone while Allâh has not yet tested those among you who have striven hard and fought and have not taken Walîjah [(Batanah - helpers, advisors and consultants from disbelievers, pagans, etc.) giving openly to them their secrets] besides Allâh and His Messenger, and the believers. Allâh is Well-Acquainted with what you do.

My undertstanding:
Even the most pious person will be tested by God. I think because if all is well, there would not be hard work. For each test determines how strong your iman is.

And those who hoard up gold and silver [Al-Kanz: the money, the Zakât of which has not been paid], and spend it not in the Way of Allâh, -announce unto them a painful torment. 9:34

My understanding:
It clearly stated that women who owns too much gold and did not wear them must pay zakat. I guess this is to highlight moderation that’s practiced by islam. Do not own more than necessary. If you do you might have to share those wealth.

March forth, whether you are light (being healthy, young and wealthy) or heavy (being ill, old and poor), strive hard with your wealth and your lives in the Cause of Allâh. This is better for you, if you but knew. 9:41
My understanding:
Announcement of Jihad. A muslim should not think twice if fighting to the right of Islam.


If you march not forth, He will punish you with a painful torment and will replace you by another people, and you cannot harm Him at all, and Allâh is Able to do all things. 9:39

My understanding:
God’s punishment to those who think twice about Jihad.

As-Sadaqât (here it means Zakât) are only for the Fuqarâ' (poor), and Al-Masâkin (the poor) and those employed to collect (the funds); and for to attract the hearts of those who have been inclined (towards Islâm); and to free the captives; and for those in debt; and for Allâh's Cause (i.e. for Mujâhidûn - those fighting in the holy wars), and for the wayfarer (a traveller who is cut off from everything); a duty imposed by Allâh. And Allâh is All-Knower, All-Wise. 9:60

My undertstanding:
Clearly stated those who are eligible to receive Zakat
Fuqara (poor) which means those who does not even own 2/3 of ‘harta’ or asset,Al Masakin (The poor) are people who owns lesser tha 2/3 of ‘harta’, zakat collectors,muallaf, captives, travelers, Mujahidun (those who is fighting in holy wayrs, ppl in debt not (not for the wrong purpose)

Open for public viewing

Today marked the 1st day of Islamic Calendar.
I've been doing some thinking and well, soul searching.

I've never been a reserved person. My blog have always been made public.

So after, sorting out some really personal entry.Keeping some to myself and some open for public. I've decided to export my then
http://wickedevils00.blogspot.com(which was then only for author)

to

http://littlestar57.blogspot.com
open for public viewing.

You can call me two face now.Cuz literally my blogs has 2 sides of me. :)

Awal Muharram

Today marked the first day of Islamic Calendar.

This is the first year that I've discovered the real significance of this event.
I admit, I was naive.

However, I have read a few books in the comfort of my family new house.
I've cancelled my social outings just to reserve today for reading.

I've read Surah At Taubah, stop mid way of An Nur.
I didn't want to elaborate much because I would keep the significant of those 2 surah for myself.

I welcome today with much joy, reciting Your verses.
Looking forward for Rejab and Sya'ban to come.

I have read the significance of those months too.

Thank you God for your Blessing.

For this year, I pray that you will keep me strong, patient and marching on my way to bring me closer to You.

You have been kind to me. I will never forget all the hints,the calmness and your Light.
You have given me Ramadhan to repair my faith. I will do the same for months to come.
InsyaAllah

Smile

I've been smiling a lot lately.

I've been listening to songs that make me smile a lot too.
Pigeon John songs "Monyback guarentee" makes me smile thinking about the unwanted guys who keeps on popping all the while. Trying to sweet talk me into going out with them. They should learn from Pigeon John. For the unwanted guys let me just say this "Even the fantasy of me is not interested in you" :)

Then there's this new rendition of "Please Don't stop the music" by Jamie Cullum

Oh boy, that guy sure knows that his voice is enough to make ones heart melt. Husky!!. Again , i prefer to listen to his voice rather than watch the v.clip. Still for a husky voice + good looks= Kings of Leon lead singer is unbeatable. Regardless, when I heard this song I smile. It does remind me of someone. Someone that shares the same husky voice.

When I look back, did this year teach me anything?
It certainly does. It's been a year with the most bitter ending. I give myself a pat on the back for surviving it and not being too bitter about it.

Smile again thinking that I don't need to take the walk of confidence.Not this time :).
Even on my least confident days I do make heads turns.
Even on my least confident days I do get friends asking if I am interested to meet new people.

I just want to enjoy this Singlehood for awhile. It does not mean I close my eyes to "oppurtunities".

It only means that I am not answerable to anyone unless if I want to.
I do not have to fulfil anyone's expectations unless if I want to.

All of which, that I miss.

I look back and think about my happiest moment. The moment that makes everyone smile. It is the time when I am single and free.

Oh yes, when I come back. I'll keep on smiling because you never know when is the next person is going to notice it.

IF that person is worthy of my time,he sure is to catch me on my best days :)

You wait for rain

By the end of 10 days, I shall be forgotten

A list of Founds

Recently,
Found myself not missing a "wirid" in my daily prayers.

Found myself not going a day without zikir.

Found myself thinking about Allah all the time.

Found myself finding peace in all of my prayers.

Absolute

Recently I found that Allah have shown His way to correct certain doubts.

For instance,
I was half awake and half asleep. Thinking that just a little sleep would qualify me for Solat sunat Tahajjud.

So as I wake up for prayers. I found out that I make a lot of mistakes that it forces me to start all over again for 3 consecutive times.

Then I stopped, prayed Solat sunat Taubat. It went smooth, no starting over.

I never imagined I could cry so much at the recitation of each verse. All the flashbacks, I remember my first recitation of "La illaha illa anta, subaha naka inni kunttu minal dzalimin.". Thanks to Zehan for reminding me about this verse during my tough times.

Right after, I slept for a good one hour.
Managed to perform solat sunat Tahajjud freely.

Before I rest my head, a strong instinct came about.
Perhaps it is God's way of showing that my half awake half asleep does not qualify me for solat tahajjud. That is why I had to restart for 3 times.

That instinct was so strong. Never had those before.

Praise to Allah.

The Wohoos, Auuuwwwss, Yeayss of life

First of all, I am proud to say that for the 3 days consecutively I went for a jog. I am starting to get addicted to it. I remembered the line “A fit body is a body to envy”. When you work out, it’s good to have a person in mind, the person who you picture your bods to be. My new found role model is Shantel VanSanten. She’s a new actress in One Tree Hill. Trust me when I say all of these work out is not to show off ones body. Rather to enhance one confidence. The side abs that I once lost, I have gained it back. Wohoo to that!
That's Shantel VanSanten.

Bowling

Went for Al Rajhi internal bowling competition. Frankly, it was fun. I think the fun-nest company event that I’ve attended.


Some other pics of the bowling tourney.
Yes, we are the Victorious Secret and yes I am the lowest scorer.

My Team



Went to Low Yatt waited for a few hours. Finally bought my father his b’day gift. Sony Ericsson C902i. A slick hand phone if u ask me. 5 MP, Camera Flash, Touch Screen for camera purpose and 3D sounds. All in all a hand phone that will make my old man happy. Yayy to that!


After Low Yatt, MidV and Kota Damansara, I went to have a chat with a friend. For once I thought I have done something right to buy a friend a t-shirt that fits well.

On the other note,

My Alfy is going to be a proud father. Milo is pregnant already. Hopefully it is Alfy’s kids. Haha..

Can you belive this is the face of a father to be? LOL

Nadirah Jalani is going to be Ms. Fozz. Yes her long term boyfriend has proposed. By the bench where they first shared their romantic moment. Since she once told Fozz that she would love a man who wrote poetry, he did just that for the first time. She was also given Fozz’s mother’s wedding ring for the proposal. Awwww to that!

When I looked back, I just realized 1 thing. All the while, I was never in a rush to be wed.

I think the right time will come for the right relationship and the right man.

Til then, happy holidays :)

What marks our timing...

Every year we would write our resolutions before New Year or for some during before Awal Muharram. That is something to be admired for.

I do think some of us do it because "well everyone does it". A lot of us somehow does not recognize or understand the significant of certain dates.

At the side of my bed, I have a mini calendar which I bought on 27th Sept. Very recent. It does not have days but it has dates. For each page there is a snippet from Quran or Hadith. Some I just read and some invoked curiosity that I read further.

There was one verse that invoked my curiosity that I choose to spend a few minute reading deeply into the Surah. To be frank, for the first time I was holding Quran like a story book. It was Surah At Taubah.

Funny how it has invoked a great curiosity at this time of year when it is near Awal Muharram. From that surah I found out that according to Islamic calendar we should observe 4 months, Zulhijjah, Zulkaedah, Muharram and Rejab. These are the 4 months where fighting is prohibited in Islam. That anger we feel that we channel into war, is forbidden in these four months.

If you asked me, there is no better way to start a year than free of hatred, grudges and anger.

The best part about Surah At Taubah is also telling you about Jihad. When I say Jihad, don't take it like how the media portray it to be. For me the way I see it, Jihad is like a resolution. To make sure you fight hard to be a better person.
For example;
When I told a friend about the challenges to change I mentioned wearing tudung is one of them.
He told me "That is your jihad then, mine is to stop smoking"

The point I am trying to put across is simple. Often we write resolutions without understanding the significance of the date. In my case, I only do things that I understand and motivate me.

I come to realized how significant Awal Muharram is at the moment I read this Surah. God has outlined clearly that before we prepare for our own "jihad" we have to enter it with the right foot. Free of malice & hatred basically making peace with yourself, your enemies and your loved ones.

Yes, some of us quoted verses of Hadith and Quran to prove a point. Point is taken. However do observe the time of day where we decided to use such Quotations’ and our intentions.

Is it to live up and motivate or is it to show that we are better than the other?

I am thankful that Allah have given me strength and patience to withstand critics.

I prayed to God everyday and seek for His mercy and Guidance to tame the heart of my loved ones. I did not get it easy. He made sure He throws in a lot of tests before He gave me the answer.

Usually if I am too lazy, I would just flipped that calendar and let it passed by. Somehow for a few days now that one line from Surah At Taubah was on my mind. By the time I read it, I knew God have answered my prayers.

I hope He will guide you the way He has guided me.

Will leave you with the picture of my side table.



These are the current books I've been reading. Oh yeah, Jodi Picoult's book is still on hold. Malas sikit. The pink book was given by a friend for my b'day to help me keep my elegance. As you can see, I am still a student in a lot of field. Hope that my slow pace in transformation could be understood. Far left, is the calendar that welcomes me everyday when I wake up.

Found it

Today is a great day, Alhamdulillah.

I was motivated to come home early and strap on my sport's shoes. Doctor has told me to take it slow, go for 3 rounds of power walk.

Doctor has a point, I am still having that fast heart beat but today I didn't feel much of it. Plus, I can't jog right away I have not been working out for 2-3 weeks! The last time I tire myself out was during futsal tourney.

So I strap on my shoes, went for a power walk (gosh I feel so old!) One round in my neighborhood’s park is huge. It is as big as 7 badminton's court. There are the easy ones and there's cardio. It goes up the small mountain.

What started off as 3 rounds, became 5. Then became 7... The next thing I know, it is already Azan Maghrib and I stopped at 9th round.

During younger days I would make it a point to jog every evening especially when I am stressed out. I don't quite like sleeping on weekdays; I reserve all of that for the weekends. Haha.

The Noisettes, The Elms and Sound Providers have somehow pumped me up to do more rounds. Plus the fact that tomorrow is public holiday for Selangor helps! (I just have to rub it in for those who works in k.l: P)

I found my motivation and I am using it to the fullest. After this, Jessica Alba can retire, since a new player is in town. LOL.

For one day, I could manage to silence my thoughts through exercising and solat. At the end of the day, I feel blessed.

Till then, have a pleasant evening everyone :)

The trigger

Thank you for all the well wishes.

Yup Thyroid made its debut again. Upon hearing the news, I get a lot of calls and text expressing their concerns.

Last year

“That is a sad book to be reading dear” says doctor Has

“You’ve read it?”

“One of my favorite, ok test result is out. Here’s my concern” she pointed at the paper.

“Your heart is palpitating faster than usual. However your thyroid hormone is active now. The level is mild so it shows the trend of inactiveness. When I say inactive, doesn’t mean it will not come back. It will but without warning. When it comes you have only 2 medicine to consume. The heartbeat will keep you up at night. It will be painful but only because your metabolism rate doubles up. Which explains your weight lost”

This year

“Hey lyana, ok let’s see your test result”

“Thyroid is active again, I think we should admit you right away.”

“Can I not be admitted, I promised to come for follow up.”

“Ok can but you know that heart beat needs to be monitored right? Plus, you will be awake all night”

“Doctor, even if I fall in a deep sleep nurse will come every hour to check, lagila I can’t sleep. “

She laughed.

“My concern is not just your thyroid but also something else. Don’t worry too much about this one test, nothing is at stake. Just for monitoring”

Upon hearing the news, a lot of my friends and former beaus called up to check on me. Thank you everyone. However I am just too bored staying at home and just trying to breathe easy. Need to keep distracting myself so I don't feel too much of it. It only keeps me up at night, haih..

Regardless thanks for being concern :)

An Hour with the Drama King

Yesterday was just well… tiring.

A particular customer was not satisfied with how the other banks are servicing him and well some branches. Funny enough this one particular place always gets the most customers’ complain.

I spent an hour listening. If you are a passer by, chances are, you would think that I gave this man a bad service. He was talking in high pitch, curses and calling everyone responsible “assholes” for his credit rejection.

So if you are a passerby, you would think I am at fault.

Lines uttered

“The muthaf***er CCRIS is a f***ing rip off”

“R** Bank is the worst of all buggers”

“C**B Bank is a daylight robber”

I laughed out loud on the inside. The best part is I was having monologues of laughter, at one time, it almost came out. Luckily, I fake it with a smile.

This man is a Drama king to the max. He was on top of his voice one moment and suddenly softens his voice and looked at me in the eye and went

“My dear, you have to understand my frustration”

And some times even word of encouragement

“You Miss Lyana, can make miracles”

And the best, courage!

“Be smart dear, you can sit down with your GM and outline this. I can tell you, you will be the promoted next year”

One point I almost burst out laughing because he thinks his word is finally getting to me. I think the line was something like

“Be that smart person Lyana, you can. Override the system. You can”

What I really want to tell that man was
“Dear Sir, I am very sorry that banks keep on giving you credit cards that says free for life. Well, I am sure you are a wise man that you want to take in all the credit cards that you don’t need and have that temptation to max them all out. I understand your frustration because trust me when I say we all go broke by mid of the month. The good part is your ‘kindness’ in helping all the sales team have resulted in super high commitments that CCRIS might need to find a new name. Yes Sir, I am smart enough to know that sitting with my GM pursuing the cause I don’t believe in will not result in a promotion.

Sir, thou you are not my client, I appreciate it if you stop by with a 3mil in your hand after suing all the banks like how you told me and that Muthaf***ing CCRIS like how you quoted. While entertaining this 1 hour drama called “listening” I have many glaring stares, 20 missed calls by various clients and 2 messages. Thou I have to thank you, as you walked out, I get applauded by all my colleague for keeping a straight face and smiling through out that 1 hour.

You know what’s funny even Sir. My colleagues are the ones that gets pissed off and me? Well I just burst out laughing. I have to agree with you sir, other place and a particular manager should have cleared the air and make nice with you,. If they handled you better, you did not even have to come to me and showcased you “unprecedented” act.

Regardless Sir, I enjoy an unprecedented movie that I even wrote this long letter to you.
I gave you 5 star for ‘being in character’, 1 for ‘story plot’. Hey sir, that Muthaf***ng CCRIS as you quote it may not give you a good rating but me sir I gave you “A must watch movie” on the side of your own dvd!.

Equations

1. My views on cultures
If you are to follow race
Malay + Indian + Dutch= Race

If you are to follow my household
Apologies- Seniorities = Person who made mistake - Seniorities

Once I step out of the house & I talk to people older than I am
Humble + Nod= You are right

If different views
Humble + Listen = Ask

2. On Relationship

Caring + Assurance =Me

If a guy says

9/10 (wouldn't settle with you)= 0.9 guys

If that 1 guy is stil 50-50 with me

0.1/2= 0.05 (chances that guy will settle down with me)

By right I should

Nod+Listen= Agree

3. Waking up

On most days

3am + 0.05 (chances)= 2 sleeping hours out of 24

2 hours x 5 days = 10 hours

2/24 hours of sleep = Bunch of pimples + Headaches

Pimples + Lack of sleep + Headaches = Bad day

Even on a bad day I chose to
Smile + Entertain = Feel happy to get that lil smile from those I entertain

4. Driving

Probabilities of listening to songs I hate = 0%
Probabilities of me dancing in my car= 100%
Probabilities of me listening to my fav songs = 150%
Probabilities of getting caught dancing & driving on weekends= 50%
Probabilities of getting caught dancing & driving on weekdays =60%
Probabilities of getting caught dancing & driving on weekdays otw to work = 99%
Incidents of getting stop by a cop for dancing in the car= 1

Days I feel defeated

Alarm + 0.05chances = Alone

Times I woke up from 0.05 as alarm clock

0.75 x 100%= 75%

However, I choose to think

9/10 might not settle down with me because all I need is 1

Given that 1, if he could see

Caring + Assurance = Me

Humble + Nod= You are right

Smile + Entertain = Feel happy to get that lil smile from those I entertain

Probabilities of getting caught dancing & driving on weekdays otw to work = 99%

InsyaAllah he would be

100%

If the 1 person does not exist
Smile + Alone= Fine :)

Not great at math but I think a content of a person can't be measured.

I choose to keep on smiling :)

Waking Up - Bigger Better Stronger

My fav lyricists are back!!

One Republic always find me at the right time and the right place. Just like how Lifehouse, Leona Lewis, Nine Days and Rob Thomas found me.

I was just talking about secrets the other day and a day later I saw their video on Channel V. Thought to myself "Damn.. How come didn't I know that their album is out?"

Their song Secrets is a soundtrack for a German movie.

I read their album review and their music this time sounds... Different.

Their words are the same but beat-wise,unique.

I just hope they stay humble like Kings of Leon and Lifehouse.

I like a music when it tries not to do so much. Which explains why I don’t listen to the “in” music as much. I like the humble beginnings of a star.

Will leave you guys with a verse from their old album- Dreaming Out Loud
"Yeah God love your soul and your aching bones
Take a breath, take a step, meet me down below
Everyone's the same
our fingers to our toes
We just can't get it right
But we're on the road"

How about Germany for One Republic Concert? Hmmm would be a great experience eh?
Ryan Tedder, I’ll pay for your words


For now I am just Dreaming Out Loud ;)

Lucky Taboo

Last night, I was having a conversation with Jan in the car. The car conversation was interesting.

We started to talk about Zehan's new image and I said to Jan,
"You know what, if one day I decided to pakai tudung I would still keep my sexy clothes"

She asked "Oukay.. y?"

I answered
"I was asked once by a gentleman what would be the one thing that will make your future husband the happiest man on earth to be marrying you. So, I figured if I decided to pakai tudung one day, my sexy clothes are for his eyes only. He'll be the luckiest man.After a hard days work he'll come back to a sexy caring wife. Damn he'll be one helluva lucky guy!"

We both laugh and she replied
"You know what?, you will meet a great guy. If you don't, I know you will still have a colorful life"

I thought that was spot on.

The other thing that touches me was how close knit is Zehan's friends. We had a long day of celebration. The partner in crime was: Khair,Dan, Lutfi, Jan, Jun and I.

Her b'day was saperated into 2 parts

A photoshoot, credit goes to Khair
He rented a photo studio for a whole 2 hours. We all took pictures with Zehan with the black and white background. It was not one of those "boring-posing-with-the-flowers" photoshoot. Props we used includes ladder,photo frames,umbrella just to name a few. I like the pictures of her with the boys. Very animated and fun looking.

We went to the nearby mosque for prayers before heading to Subang for her b'day dinner. A place I reserved for her.

Some of her gangs that could not make it for the photoshoot came for the dinner. Murni, Faiz, Shah and his fiance, Oyin just to name a few.

It was tiring but fun.

As usual I came up with all these silly questions. I.e If you are a steak, describe what kind of steak will you be? and some other ice breakers. Zehan end up saying that she could always count on me for asking silly questions. Well well, that's just me: Silly.

After her b'day dinner they were planning on chillin' and I decided to call it a night. Penat!

So we went through storms, rain, lost journey (for those who lost the sight of my car while convoying) and a good meal for Nazehan. Have a Happy Birthday Buddy. Pictures will be uploaded later since I am too lazy to put it up for now :)

Repeat

I bumped into my friend’s father last week and they asked me to join them since I was dining at the same place.

As I took my seat, uncle asked me a few questions and somehow or rather we talked about Malaysia’s current generation.

To illustrate his points, he told me his story:

I went for hajj few years back and then I asked my friend yg pergi sekali tu

‘Kenapa kita kena sembahyang 5 times a day’

My friend said ‘Hey kau ni ada tanya soalan mcm tu. We are in the holy land!’

Uncle responded ‘I don’t think Allah will penalize me for being curious. Maybe I am ignorant la kan but He will always guide us to find the right answer apa.”

My friend said ‘Ok la, the only answer I can think of is it’s our duty as a Muslim as He is our creator’

Feeling unsatisfied with my friend’s answer, I prayed and all I ever thought was my question that I have unanswered. I remained focused in my prayers with that question in mind and I managed to touch Ka’abah and asked Allah the same question.

That night, I dream byk sangat benda but those things are repetitive. Same scene but repeated. The next day, I the word “repeat” was stuck in my head.

It’s been like that for few days.

At last, I heard a father telling his Son. “If you can’t find the answer you are looking for.. pray again. When you repeat InsyaAllah Allah will guide you to your answer”

Then I was absolute God has answered my question.

So basically, if you want something focus, concentrate and repeat. Besides our duty as a Muslim, Allah is forgiving and merciful. Allah will guide us to all our unanswered questions and queries. Besides our obligations as a Muslim, praying five times a day and repeating every day will always guide you for whatever you prayed for at that time.

All in all, just like my example. I think budak-budak these days should put it in mind. If you want something focus, concentrate and repeat. InsyaAllah they will achieve whatever they are looking for.

After I went back, I thought “Simple questions, simple answers, singnificant story” .


At times we throw looks at those who asked this sort of question.
At times the answer is simple but unsatisfactory.

The question is simple but taboo to people in general.
Allah will always have the answer even for the simplest and taboo question.

If I were to count the look I get or the statements being thrown at me. All I could think of is this story. For that story I have Uncle to thank for. 

This is a piece of cake...Not!

I was often irritated when people asked me "So what do u think of eastern and western cultures"

Another one of those questions again.

I don't think people understand when I say "Culture is a subjective terms"

I answered my friend the same way I answered everyone else.

"Take in the good, leave the "bad" cultures behind"

By “bad” it means the ones that’s out of your beliefs & upbringing.

Then the whole Q & A started.

I stopped him and say "Here's the thing, if in the west they kick their son/daughter out of the house at 18. Definitely family bond is strained but these kids can fend for themselves better don't you think? They became very independent at early age but you know to each person the experience is different la kan"

Sometimes we get so caught up with the idea that our culture is better than the other that it makes us forget what our point of comparing is. Is it to feel good or superior than the other or just simply to separate the two ideologies?

However after years of debating on these issues, I came to the idea that I should just nod my head in approval with whatever they think is right.

Life is all about labels’. I just wonder when will those labels expires. I come to terms that it will never have an expiry date.

To sum it all up, sometimes the grass is greener on the other side. When you have been to that other side of the fence, you still come home to a home cook food.

Pictures that worth a thousand word

Found a bunch of pictures. All these pictures are taken using my camera and camera phones.

A thing or 2 about Love

How I perceived Relationship.

1. You partner date you for who you are.

2. Your partner date you because he/she loves your company

3. Your partner date you because he/she could recall the way you laugh or smiled

4. Your partner date you because you are there when he/she needs your support.

5. Your partner date you because he/she loves the way you make them feel.


Fallacies I observed in relationships

1. You can't change a person but you can accomodate.

2. You & your partner get so caught up with each other that you don't make time for your friends and families.

3. You see your values through your partner's eyes.

4. You lost your sense of independence because you have someone to rely on.

How I see marriage

1. Previously people get into marriages without thinking about divorce. Now as much as we hate to admit it. We do think about divorce.

2. A lot of people who are married told me, "Trust your partner but not a 100% even if dah kahwin". That is why some of these ladies have their fixed investments and never send the mail to their home address.

3. It takes more than chemistry and love. Love alone is not enough to sustain a marriage. Love runs out sometimes, that is why on certain days you questioned "Why do i marry this guy that snores like a cow?!"

4. Marriage takes hard work. If you enter a marriage not thinking about a divorce, I would say "Well done, we need more people like you" because if it's divorce that you are thinking, then divorce is what you will get.

5. Marriage is about making that effort to learn about what works for your better half. What works for your family day in and day out.

I am still a student of "relationship". All I know is your partner dates you for who you are and if it changes you then you have to take a step back and ask "Do i like these changes?".

For all you singles out there always remember there's a thin line that saperates requirements and complibilities. A person can fulfill your requirements but lack in compatibilties or like wise.

For those who has a lot of experience in Love, you should learn and use those knowledge to the next person you are with. The Do's and Don'ts , hence "Relationship is about dealing with regrets". All because you try to make yourself a better partner every single day and sometimes you fall short or you forget. When you forget, you'll learn how to remember and go from there.


I remember someone saying "Sometimes it is not about choosing the right person. Most of the time it's about choosing the right relationships" and I thought that phrase was so spot on! Til then have a breezy Sunday everyone :)

Lifehouse

I've always been a fan of Lifehouse.

Their lyrics are poetry and the best thing is, it's inspiring too. I had their album from 2005. It was one of the bands that I just bought the album "to check it out."Turns out, they are no ordinary band. I don't think I could find a song that I don't like in their album.

It's been a long time I didn't buy Original Cd. The last one I bought was Peterpan's album. So I checked out the lyrics of Who We Are , Life house 2007 album and I thought "what took me so long?!" so yesterday, I just bought RM36 Who We Are cd.

Jason Wade a.k.a the vocalists/lead wrote almost all of the songs and arranged them too. The guy is super talented & the best part is we share birthdays! His was 5th July 1980.

My favorite song would be Broken & Disarray.

As I read further, Broken is featured in One Tree Hill and Time Traveler's Wife.

I kind of freaked out a little bit. One Tree Hill is my fav series and Time Traveler’s Wife was the movie I wanted to watch badly in the states but tough luck, no one wants to watch a sappy romantic movie with me. It'll be here soon! Though I have to say Rachael McAdam is not my cup of tea.

The thing I observe about great musicians like Life House & One Republics are they came from religious families but they go through a great deal of tests in their lives. They need an outlet and that outlet of theirs cashed in millions!

So Jason Wade who was born on the same birthday I did, only 4 years older wrote this

Snippets of

Disarray
Struggling between the facts and fiction I'm alone
But I'm alive
Everyone around me is trying to make a statement
Then there's me
I'm just trying to survive

Some day I'm gonna find it wish i knew what i was looking for
inside the disarray
I woke up this morning don't know where I'm going but it's
Alright I wouldn't have it any other way

If this was any other day I'd pretend to know where I stand
I just don't know

From your coolest aunt ;)

I can’t wait to be an aunt

Don’t panic, my sister is NOT pregnant!
But my best friend is and I am super excited.

It’s a different feeling actually. When you are an aunt because your cousin gave birth, you just realized “Damn! I am old!!!!”

When you best friend is pregnant, you get excited, you realized “I want to be that hot aunt!” and I even told Mira that.

I want to be the aunt that taught her baby what “mama and papa don’t teach”.
I want to be that aunt that said “C’mon kiddo, don’t stay within line of right and wrong. The world is your oyster, swim the sea of possibilities. It’s fun!”

All because I know Mama and Papa is looking out for you.
All because Mama and Papa wants you safe.
All because Mama and Papa wants to protect you.

I have no doubt that Mama and Papa will provide you with the greatest TLC.

I also know that Mama and Papa will scold you if you climb that “pagar” that could make you fall.

I also know that Mama and Papa will “pukul you sikit” if you don’t listen because they have the “reward & punish scheme”

I also know that Mama and Papa will find it hard when you talk on the phone for so long, obsessed over hot guys/girls and finally dated that girl/guy that they think “you deserve better”

All because they want to protect you from that fall, from that mistakes, from that heartaches.

That’s where you will have your aunt to turn to. Of course I will call your mom up and ask what’s up and ask her “what you want me to do with this budak nakal”

But other than being your aunt, I want to be your friend too.

I want to take you to concerts, to that rollercoaster rides, to that ‘secret’ date that mama and papa don’t know (Mira don’t worry I’ll bring him/her back on time and I will tell you who is that girl/guy your kid is out with) and I also want to be that aunt that say “Okay kiddo, what do you wanna do next”

For you kiddo, I won’t say “don’t make mistakes” I will say “Make them but sooner” because you will have time to undo the mistakes later and InsyaAllah you will have your mama, papa and your aunt to be your motivator.

You know from whom I learned this from? From my Parents (don’t worry you will meet them when you are old enough to remember their name)

My parents are not just a parental figure; my parents are my best friend. My dad knows I will make mistakes, he let me but with a warning that I might get burn. When I get burned, he throw in salt to a fresh wound but there’s my mom who removed it fast with water, tissues and a calamine lotion. After the pain subsides there’s my dad who will sit down and apologized for throwing in salt on a fresh wound. He will hug me and say “I will always be there for you. You will always be daddy’s little girl”

I have no doubt that you will have the best upbringing all because you have a great Mama and Papa. The ones that will let you learn through experience but will stand by with a first aid kit when you are wounded.

Me? Your aunt, I am just here to see your adventurous journey and I will help you with your wildest and widest dreams. I will also “Pulas” your ears when your wildest dreams get too much to my “weary” ears.

I don’t know how you will look like and who will you be. All I know is I am excited for your arrival because I know you will be welcomed into a great family and a sea of possibilities. Enjoy that warm place for now little one, you have another 5 months (5 months kan mira?) before your journey begins ;)

From your “Coolest” Aunt..


PS: Mira I put aunt cuz I don’t want any1 to know, nanti semua nak tiru. Cheh!

Why I love the back seat

I was reading my childhood friend's (Melissa) blog. The entry was about the wedding frenzy that everyone is having. Plus, sudden realization such as "Ok now i have a huge ass diamond ring on my finger, NOW WHAT?" and the line such as "But, I've came across a few, where I think "Why are you getting married when you can't even stand each other??!!".

First of all,Mel don't panic I am not getting married anytime soon. What I wanna blog about is something we take for granted everyday when we sit in the backseat of our parent's car. There's a lot of things about relationship that you could watch from the backseat of a car.

I went to the mall today. Nawar's parents drove us there. On the way back, I decided to watch them from the backseat. Then I realized, the way uncle teased Aunty Sami'ah and laughed when she gets upset. The stories they share with each other. The whole way back was never filled with silence. We are talking about a couple who sees each other everyday for the past 25-30 years and still they don't run out of things to talk about and best still the image of them teasing each other remind me of 2 lil kids. Perhaps there's always a kid in us no matter how old we get.

There were times when I take the beackseat, I pretended to sleep. Actually I was wide awake and listening attentively to my parent's conversations. They talked a lot about the past, the ppl the know, their kids behavior and their regrets. Few lines I could remember clearly

"Abang, kita bagi nama salah la kat anak last kita ni. Nama Lyana dekat dengan Lena. Patutla tidur cepat sangat" - Regret

" Mah, Mah ingat tak masa kita pi Chiang Mai tu. Best kan, lani boleh la pi sekali lagi, anak2 kita dah besaq" - Past

"Tak tau la apa nak jadi dgn anak2 kita. Sorang suceed in Marriage, lagi sorang succeed in career. Tak boleh ka ada sorang yg dua dua ada?"- Kids

I love those conversations because they are not just husband and wife, they are a soul mate, even if they don't know it.

Every time I thought about increasing rate of divorce and fights couples have. It makes a lot of us scared to even think about marriage. Every time I have that feeling, I remember what I heard when I was in the back seat of the car. What I saw is the best example of relationship, making it work every single day, making your spouse the person to share your stories, teasing your spouse just to hear that laugh that makes u happy instantly.

So those who are married, I wish you will make it work every single day. Some of us need a good example of marriage that works becuz there are too many that proved otherwise. Sometimes all you need is one image to hold on to when everything else seems to work against it.

For my friend Mel,
I asked my parents a lot of question about how do they make their marriage work for 29 years. When you have doubts abt urs (c'mon admit it all married ppl hv that moment) perhaps you should ask ur parents. I know Aunty Linda and Unc Bernard will have a good answer for u.

For my friend Mira,
One of the coolest couple ever!!! With baby on the way (btw i dun wanna be called Aunty Lyana) I really hope you guys make it work every single day and i am convinced u guys are each others soul mate. Yes Mira, tiba2 jiwang la pulak kan? Hahah.. I'm still cool as school ok?! :P

So folks, those who are married and those who are not. "Love alone is not enough to sustain a marriage, once you are a best friend to your spouse, making sure you are there for each others hobbies, making them no.1 in ur life. That's the key to a successful marriage" After all the man who said this is happily married for 29years to a patient wife :)