Recently I meet up with some friends. Different places , different walk of life but the theme is the same. Religion and relationships.
It all started with one question “So what’s the single scene like?”
I was at ease when my friends have the same school of thought when it comes to relationship. We talked about why our recent relationship doesn’t work out.
My homeboys came with the same conclusion “regardless of how many good times, it hurts just the same when it ended.”
One of them is as objective as I am. “So it hurts and it sucks but you give yourself time and said what’s done is done. Move on. Don’t dwell upon it too much.” Yea we do have our time where we have our “weak moments” but we believe there are better people for us out there. It’s just a matter of time. I mean who can resist our wit, charm and outlook on life” (ok, bragging but heck I don’t care).
I believe with my new outlook, my friends took time to talk about religion. Regardless if they are Muslim or not. That’s what I love about them, the fact that many of them are third culture kid, adjusting to changes is easy for them.
I believe they took time to talk about religion to also see if I am the same Lyana that they know. Totally understandable.
Here’s what I know from the whole meet up. My ignorance towards my own religion is what keeps me humble. I believe in the authenticity of my faith but my progress and knowledge of my own faith is so little that I don’t dare to preach anything beyond what I know. Hence, I learned to listen more to what they have to say and their own understanding of religion.
One of them mentioned that a Muslim father said to a potential convert “You are a Christian and you will go to hell” and I just shook my head in disbelief. Thinking “Seriously sir?! What in the world are u thinking saying such thing?” and we both agree there’s a better way to pitch it.
After meeting my friends, I came back and sat down with my parents. I told them “You know, my friends have good hearts regardless of their walk of life and school of thoughts.”
I truly believe in that. To others eyes, they can appear to be blunt or daunting but to me they are great friends. I am thankful that I have diverse friends and the end we look only at one thing, how good we can be as a friend.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Blessings
I have been having series of dreams that appears in similar patterns. Recurring dreams and signs I can't decipher at the moment.
For whatever reason 3 of the dreams felt so real, I was convinced I lived in it.
A friend said it doesn't have to be dreams and signs, sometimes it's the certainty of the heart. Tough in many ways.
For whatever reason it is, I continue praying and turn to Him every time I feel joyful and sorrow.
I have my monologues with Him and sometimes on my many journey home I shed a tear or two.
I don't hope for "shoulda woulda coulda" sparks since the day we decided to part. I just know He has helped me.
He blessed me with friends and family that could spot sadness through my many denials.
He bless me with those that says "Let's leave this town for a while and it's unkindness"
He bless me with friends that knows I need more laughter than acknowledging my distress.
And most certainly He has bless me with strength , guidance and peace.
A peace confined in less than an hour but greater than any feeling of contentment I have ever felt.
He has helped me to move along in more ways I could imagine.
For that I am forever thankful God.
For whatever reason 3 of the dreams felt so real, I was convinced I lived in it.
A friend said it doesn't have to be dreams and signs, sometimes it's the certainty of the heart. Tough in many ways.
For whatever reason it is, I continue praying and turn to Him every time I feel joyful and sorrow.
I have my monologues with Him and sometimes on my many journey home I shed a tear or two.
I don't hope for "shoulda woulda coulda" sparks since the day we decided to part. I just know He has helped me.
He blessed me with friends and family that could spot sadness through my many denials.
He bless me with those that says "Let's leave this town for a while and it's unkindness"
He bless me with friends that knows I need more laughter than acknowledging my distress.
And most certainly He has bless me with strength , guidance and peace.
A peace confined in less than an hour but greater than any feeling of contentment I have ever felt.
He has helped me to move along in more ways I could imagine.
For that I am forever thankful God.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Sexy Funky Cool
When a line.. a verse... a word could evoke emotion. Then the person who wrote it or present it turns u into a believer.
We believe in something that evokes certain types of emotion.
Then there's bench marking. As for me after reading Khaled Hosseini's book, Mitch Albom's and Paulo Cuelho's book became just a o.k.
There's one band that turns me into a believer and benchmark it so high that my other favorite band became secondary. Yes, that band is Kings of Leon.
I was not a huge fan until I went to "Lolla Pallooza" a 3days music fest and I saw them performed live.
Initially I went to Lolla with the idea of watching Arctic Monkeys and Snoop Dogg.
After watching Kings of Leon performing live, standing 3rd row in a 100,000 crowd, I still remember how good their music sounded. The sound of bass and guitar alone could just give me goosebumps. To the point that they make Arctic Monkeys and Snoop Dogg look bad performing. Yes, that's how good they were.
From just a fan to "Use Somebody" I was converted into Kings of Leon fan over night.
Kings of Leon is an old band. They have been there for ages and u may not know this but they are 6 times Grammy award winner. Mainly for "Sex on Fire" and "Use Somebody".
Yes, a lot of people don't get the murmuring of the vocalist but I believe their songs are about creating a vibe and atmosphere. Sexy in a rock and roll manner. Caleb's husky voice is too damn sexy to be ignored too.
But here's the problem of an indie band turning mainstream. They get criticized for going into normal air play. I say "Screw That" if you don't loose the sense of ur music why not? Staying indie don't pay the bills.
As expected "Come around sundown" was being critic left right up down for going into the mainstream. It's so predictable of reviews , so I turn deaf ears and choose selective reading.
I love how the vocalist put it “I didn’t want the world to start to hate us because every time you’d turn on the radio, you’d hear one of our songs,” said Caleb Followill, 28, by telephone from Los Angeles. To avoid overexposure Kings of Leon turned down offers, for example, to appear on “Ugly Betty” or to have one of their songs performed on “Glee.”
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/09/12/arts/music/12pareles.html
In a lot of ways too much exposure can kill the band too. The emphasis is quality and not quantity.
Don't get me wrong, I love Bruno Mars but the FMs killed it by putting it on loop for every 1 hour.
For The Kings I believe their music is still relevant and still authentic in every sense of the word.
If the movie is good. If the cd is good. Then I say "SCREW THE REVIEWS" you have your five sense to make your own judgement.
Til then Carpe Diem folks ;)
We believe in something that evokes certain types of emotion.
Then there's bench marking. As for me after reading Khaled Hosseini's book, Mitch Albom's and Paulo Cuelho's book became just a o.k.
There's one band that turns me into a believer and benchmark it so high that my other favorite band became secondary. Yes, that band is Kings of Leon.
I was not a huge fan until I went to "Lolla Pallooza" a 3days music fest and I saw them performed live.
Initially I went to Lolla with the idea of watching Arctic Monkeys and Snoop Dogg.
After watching Kings of Leon performing live, standing 3rd row in a 100,000 crowd, I still remember how good their music sounded. The sound of bass and guitar alone could just give me goosebumps. To the point that they make Arctic Monkeys and Snoop Dogg look bad performing. Yes, that's how good they were.
From just a fan to "Use Somebody" I was converted into Kings of Leon fan over night.
Kings of Leon is an old band. They have been there for ages and u may not know this but they are 6 times Grammy award winner. Mainly for "Sex on Fire" and "Use Somebody".
Yes, a lot of people don't get the murmuring of the vocalist but I believe their songs are about creating a vibe and atmosphere. Sexy in a rock and roll manner. Caleb's husky voice is too damn sexy to be ignored too.
But here's the problem of an indie band turning mainstream. They get criticized for going into normal air play. I say "Screw That" if you don't loose the sense of ur music why not? Staying indie don't pay the bills.
As expected "Come around sundown" was being critic left right up down for going into the mainstream. It's so predictable of reviews , so I turn deaf ears and choose selective reading.
I love how the vocalist put it “I didn’t want the world to start to hate us because every time you’d turn on the radio, you’d hear one of our songs,” said Caleb Followill, 28, by telephone from Los Angeles. To avoid overexposure Kings of Leon turned down offers, for example, to appear on “Ugly Betty” or to have one of their songs performed on “Glee.”
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/09/12/arts/music/12pareles.html
In a lot of ways too much exposure can kill the band too. The emphasis is quality and not quantity.
Don't get me wrong, I love Bruno Mars but the FMs killed it by putting it on loop for every 1 hour.
For The Kings I believe their music is still relevant and still authentic in every sense of the word.
If the movie is good. If the cd is good. Then I say "SCREW THE REVIEWS" you have your five sense to make your own judgement.
Til then Carpe Diem folks ;)
Why I love Jason Mraz
Love thy neighbor.
Love thy neighborhood drug dealer.
Love thy cop.
Love thy criminal.
Love thee bank.
Love thee borrower.
Love the happy.
Love the sorrower.
Wait… does this mean I have to love Justin Bieber?
Fuck.
Taken from Jason Mraz's blog
Love thy neighborhood drug dealer.
Love thy cop.
Love thy criminal.
Love thee bank.
Love thee borrower.
Love the happy.
Love the sorrower.
Wait… does this mean I have to love Justin Bieber?
Fuck.
Taken from Jason Mraz's blog
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Soul searching journey
When I was in Melbourne, I visited my friend Kim Ong and her hubby Josiah Ng (yes the cyclist that make us proud by earning Gold medal in Commonwealth games).
Kim asked me "What brought you to wear tudung?"
"Faith mostly."
"Can you 'buka tudung balik' once u wear it?"
"Well, religiously you can't but again it comes back to faith. Trust me, everyday I pray for strength and certainty to keep my hijab on. It's a series of steps I take that leads me here. I'm not saying those who doesn't wear tudung is a bad person. Let's leave the judging to God. In the end God measures you against you. He doesn't compare ur deeds and sins with others.Some people found other ways of thanking God. This is one of my many ways to thank God."
"You look nice in it. I like the way you wear them, very trendy"
As I'm typing, I realized I am such a lucky girl.
I realized that so many of my non muslim friends are supportive of my move. That's what happen when one starts to see the content of one's character rather than their looks. I have many good friends from all walks of life and nothing warms my heart more than knowing they are always cheering me on. Thanks folks ;)
Then there are also some shocking remarks by muslim friends who thought my move have a lot to do with guys. I don't blame them, I do tend to date a lot and hardly take a breather in between. So it's only natural for them to see it that way. Regardless some statement by "used to be good friend" hurts big time.
This is how see hijab. It is a submission of love towards God and urself. I see it as sexual modesty. The western media looks at hijab as oppressive yet when they see girls in lingerie grinding the pole in snoop dogg's video, they termed it as degrading women. So who would you rather follow, a path that is clear or a society that is confused in it's view when it comes to woman and their body?
Then there's a question of guys. Someone asked "So how now with tudung u'll have dwindling fan base as compared to before?"
I just told them "Do u see me with any guy now? Even when I'm not wearing tudung, it doesn't lead me to any Mr. Right. Allah knows who is best for me."
Many arrives at the assumptions that someone influenced me to wear it. It is easier to point out what moved me to wear it because answers like "New found faith " or "It's what I want for me" doesn't suffice anymore.
Believe me when I say I seek for peace in life. Mostly I seek for the connectedness with my Maker. I did tell myself that once I get that peacefulness in my daily prayer and just a time with Him, I will stick to the right path , Insha Allah. In the end that's what happened and my hijab is a symbol of a promise I make to God.
I was a party girl, I don't regret the past I have because it has led me here. To the door of repentance. A friend of mine said " Allah's forgiveness is bigger than any sin committed" . I couldn't agree more. We all hope to enter jannah, for me my deeds and ibadah is just for one thing- to be at His mercy because that's where it starts.
There is always a better angel within us that calls for the path of righteousness. It is up to you to respond to the calling or ignore them.
When the callings come, I hope you answer it and I'll be there to witness the many amazing journey carved out for you.
Insha Allah
Kim asked me "What brought you to wear tudung?"
"Faith mostly."
"Can you 'buka tudung balik' once u wear it?"
"Well, religiously you can't but again it comes back to faith. Trust me, everyday I pray for strength and certainty to keep my hijab on. It's a series of steps I take that leads me here. I'm not saying those who doesn't wear tudung is a bad person. Let's leave the judging to God. In the end God measures you against you. He doesn't compare ur deeds and sins with others.Some people found other ways of thanking God. This is one of my many ways to thank God."
"You look nice in it. I like the way you wear them, very trendy"
As I'm typing, I realized I am such a lucky girl.
I realized that so many of my non muslim friends are supportive of my move. That's what happen when one starts to see the content of one's character rather than their looks. I have many good friends from all walks of life and nothing warms my heart more than knowing they are always cheering me on. Thanks folks ;)
Then there are also some shocking remarks by muslim friends who thought my move have a lot to do with guys. I don't blame them, I do tend to date a lot and hardly take a breather in between. So it's only natural for them to see it that way. Regardless some statement by "used to be good friend" hurts big time.
This is how see hijab. It is a submission of love towards God and urself. I see it as sexual modesty. The western media looks at hijab as oppressive yet when they see girls in lingerie grinding the pole in snoop dogg's video, they termed it as degrading women. So who would you rather follow, a path that is clear or a society that is confused in it's view when it comes to woman and their body?
Then there's a question of guys. Someone asked "So how now with tudung u'll have dwindling fan base as compared to before?"
I just told them "Do u see me with any guy now? Even when I'm not wearing tudung, it doesn't lead me to any Mr. Right. Allah knows who is best for me."
Many arrives at the assumptions that someone influenced me to wear it. It is easier to point out what moved me to wear it because answers like "New found faith " or "It's what I want for me" doesn't suffice anymore.
Believe me when I say I seek for peace in life. Mostly I seek for the connectedness with my Maker. I did tell myself that once I get that peacefulness in my daily prayer and just a time with Him, I will stick to the right path , Insha Allah. In the end that's what happened and my hijab is a symbol of a promise I make to God.
I was a party girl, I don't regret the past I have because it has led me here. To the door of repentance. A friend of mine said " Allah's forgiveness is bigger than any sin committed" . I couldn't agree more. We all hope to enter jannah, for me my deeds and ibadah is just for one thing- to be at His mercy because that's where it starts.
There is always a better angel within us that calls for the path of righteousness. It is up to you to respond to the calling or ignore them.
When the callings come, I hope you answer it and I'll be there to witness the many amazing journey carved out for you.
Insha Allah
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
inquisitive nature of man
My uncle and aunt was the selected few to perform Haj.
So I volunteered to take care of my little cousins while they are away.
I was watching 2012 with a 7 year old and he asked me
"B.lyana, kenapa bangunan semua tenggelam"
"Oh ni tunjuk pasal hari nak kiamat"
I was too lazy to explain about the effect of global warming.
Then there's a scene of ummah performing solah around kaabah.
"Eh! Ni ka'abah.. Kenapa diaorang tunjuk ka'abah dgn dunia kiamat? Umi dgn bab ok ke?"
"Umi dgn bab ok. Ni cerite je. Dia tunjuk orang sembahyang pasal kalau kiamat nak dekat orang sembahyang nak stopkan kiamat"
Ok I know it's not the most logical explanation but try being put on a spot like that!
Then comes the million question..
"Ok kalau tuhan boleh stopkan kiamat..kenapa tuhan bagi kiamat? "
Now what would u say to that as an adult to a 7 year old..and he demand an answer on the spot..
I bet we need more than 5mins to think of the perfect answer
So I volunteered to take care of my little cousins while they are away.
I was watching 2012 with a 7 year old and he asked me
"B.lyana, kenapa bangunan semua tenggelam"
"Oh ni tunjuk pasal hari nak kiamat"
I was too lazy to explain about the effect of global warming.
Then there's a scene of ummah performing solah around kaabah.
"Eh! Ni ka'abah.. Kenapa diaorang tunjuk ka'abah dgn dunia kiamat? Umi dgn bab ok ke?"
"Umi dgn bab ok. Ni cerite je. Dia tunjuk orang sembahyang pasal kalau kiamat nak dekat orang sembahyang nak stopkan kiamat"
Ok I know it's not the most logical explanation but try being put on a spot like that!
Then comes the million question..
"Ok kalau tuhan boleh stopkan kiamat..kenapa tuhan bagi kiamat? "
Now what would u say to that as an adult to a 7 year old..and he demand an answer on the spot..
I bet we need more than 5mins to think of the perfect answer
Friday, October 8, 2010
My WTH moments
"When u stressed out dear you say things and they sound harsh without u realizing them"
Is a perfect way to define my WTH moments.
What the hell is the look or actual words you say to someone when they say or do something you don't expect them to.
I got a lot of that.
You see when something is bothering me, subconsciously I would say the darnest thing.
Quick reflex- can't help it! What the hell right?
1. At the curve
Mr. Gerbil : Cmon let your sister decide
Me: She'll take ages .. If she can decide
Got pulled to the restroom, "what the hell, lyana?"
"What? I was tired got stuck in a jam and don't look forward to seeing any of ur friends!"
2. On msn
Prince : So yeah the thing is she's expecting something right and that's great.
Me : Expectation is a bitch mann
Prince : What the hell was that?
Me: Oh that's just Mr. Expectation talking
Prince : Tell Mr. Expectation off will ya?
3. On the phone
Dude : Oh wow! Ur such a cool girl!! Maybe we should hang out!
Monologue me: Easyyy there tiger..
Me: erm kayy
Dude : Giler gempak la u!!
Monologue me : Ok bubbye now
Me: I don't know if I'll be in town.. But hey..someday perhaps
Monologue me : what the hell lyana? Someday? Someday? Like never!
To those I have hurt.. Through my WTH moments, something must've bothered me so bad. It's not u but it's me..cliche!
Oh well, what the hell right?
Is a perfect way to define my WTH moments.
What the hell is the look or actual words you say to someone when they say or do something you don't expect them to.
I got a lot of that.
You see when something is bothering me, subconsciously I would say the darnest thing.
Quick reflex- can't help it! What the hell right?
1. At the curve
Mr. Gerbil : Cmon let your sister decide
Me: She'll take ages .. If she can decide
Got pulled to the restroom, "what the hell, lyana?"
"What? I was tired got stuck in a jam and don't look forward to seeing any of ur friends!"
2. On msn
Prince : So yeah the thing is she's expecting something right and that's great.
Me : Expectation is a bitch mann
Prince : What the hell was that?
Me: Oh that's just Mr. Expectation talking
Prince : Tell Mr. Expectation off will ya?
3. On the phone
Dude : Oh wow! Ur such a cool girl!! Maybe we should hang out!
Monologue me: Easyyy there tiger..
Me: erm kayy
Dude : Giler gempak la u!!
Monologue me : Ok bubbye now
Me: I don't know if I'll be in town.. But hey..someday perhaps
Monologue me : what the hell lyana? Someday? Someday? Like never!
To those I have hurt.. Through my WTH moments, something must've bothered me so bad. It's not u but it's me..cliche!
Oh well, what the hell right?
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Al Araf
"And remember your Lord within yourself,
Humbly and with fear and without loudness
In words, in the mornings and in the afternoons
And be not of those who are neglectful"
7:205
Humbly and with fear and without loudness
In words, in the mornings and in the afternoons
And be not of those who are neglectful"
7:205
I could be a little in - SANE at times
So I am on a month plus holiday, hence, scouting for a new adrenaline rush activities before I get back to work.
Dad is now retired, parents on holidays, I am on holiday.. dad ask me to scout for a quick vacation.. *JACKPOT*!
Initial plan was registering for umrah, God how I want to go and visit the holy land. Tough luck, visa application ended , people might overstay for haj.. make more duas Insha Allah hope that my intention will bring me there next year. Insha Allah.
So umrah's out *Boo hoo hoo*sob*sob*
Melbourne seemed to be the number one choice now. I was never fond of Australia but I am sure it has changed a lot since the last time I was there. Sydney as the first Aussie experience was sorta a let down.
Best thing about my Sydney trip?
-Dad thought Bondi beach is a family spot. Needless to say it was one of the topless beach as well. So I witnessed that at the age of 12 :-D
Then , dad make me all excited by suggesting a 7 day stay in Melbourne and a possible 7 day stay in Auckland , New Zealand. Suggesting je baru.
What can an overly excited girl like me do?
Check out The Must Do's in Auckland and Melbourne. (notice how i put Auckland first ;))
At the end of my many reading I come to conclusion that I could be in-SANE at times.
Why? Here's what I saved in my bb.
Auckland
1. Bungee Jumping at Auckland Bridge
2. Kelly Tarlton Underwater World & Atartic Adventure
I was excited by the line "For the brave-hearted, experience the interactive stingray Bay by swimming with stingrays; or get in the shark tank and swim with real-life sharks!".
I am sure swimming in a shark tank would break the bank for me. If it's affordable but I chickened out, I'd say "I swam with sharks already in Redang" true but jeez it was just coral sharks.
3. Canyoning adventures
"Abseiling (repelling) down showering waterfalls surrounded by moss and fern covered volcanic rock walls, swimming through pools of blues and greens, jumps, caves, and slides"
Ok here's the deal. People did not go to NZ to shop, they go for the nature's experience. This mean sea, waterfalls,sailing and just many outdoors activities. So this is a must i suppose.
4. A visit to Davenport
Need I say more?
And the first thing I was attracted to when I typed in "Things to Do in Melbourne"
Melbourne Skydive Center..
If I managed to go and do these crazy stuff, it's because
1. I would beg and beg dad and he'll do it to shut me up
2. I could grab a partner brave enough to do it with me. (gotta persuade Luke in NZ and Kim in Melbourne to do it with me)
If I don't
1. Parents treats my begging like a chirping bird and ignore it.
2. I don't have a brave enough of a partner
3. God won't let me.
4. Too expansive..
I pray hard this trip in the first place, jadi! Insha Allah
Dad is now retired, parents on holidays, I am on holiday.. dad ask me to scout for a quick vacation.. *JACKPOT*!
Initial plan was registering for umrah, God how I want to go and visit the holy land. Tough luck, visa application ended , people might overstay for haj.. make more duas Insha Allah hope that my intention will bring me there next year. Insha Allah.
So umrah's out *Boo hoo hoo*sob*sob*
Melbourne seemed to be the number one choice now. I was never fond of Australia but I am sure it has changed a lot since the last time I was there. Sydney as the first Aussie experience was sorta a let down.
Best thing about my Sydney trip?
-Dad thought Bondi beach is a family spot. Needless to say it was one of the topless beach as well. So I witnessed that at the age of 12 :-D
Then , dad make me all excited by suggesting a 7 day stay in Melbourne and a possible 7 day stay in Auckland , New Zealand. Suggesting je baru.
What can an overly excited girl like me do?
Check out The Must Do's in Auckland and Melbourne. (notice how i put Auckland first ;))
At the end of my many reading I come to conclusion that I could be in-SANE at times.
Why? Here's what I saved in my bb.
Auckland
1. Bungee Jumping at Auckland Bridge
2. Kelly Tarlton Underwater World & Atartic Adventure
I was excited by the line "For the brave-hearted, experience the interactive stingray Bay by swimming with stingrays; or get in the shark tank and swim with real-life sharks!".
I am sure swimming in a shark tank would break the bank for me. If it's affordable but I chickened out, I'd say "I swam with sharks already in Redang" true but jeez it was just coral sharks.
3. Canyoning adventures
"Abseiling (repelling) down showering waterfalls surrounded by moss and fern covered volcanic rock walls, swimming through pools of blues and greens, jumps, caves, and slides"
Ok here's the deal. People did not go to NZ to shop, they go for the nature's experience. This mean sea, waterfalls,sailing and just many outdoors activities. So this is a must i suppose.
4. A visit to Davenport
Need I say more?
And the first thing I was attracted to when I typed in "Things to Do in Melbourne"
Melbourne Skydive Center..
If I managed to go and do these crazy stuff, it's because
1. I would beg and beg dad and he'll do it to shut me up
2. I could grab a partner brave enough to do it with me. (gotta persuade Luke in NZ and Kim in Melbourne to do it with me)
If I don't
1. Parents treats my begging like a chirping bird and ignore it.
2. I don't have a brave enough of a partner
3. God won't let me.
4. Too expansive..
I pray hard this trip in the first place, jadi! Insha Allah
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
I can't - I don't want to = Same thing
Some days I would text my friend and ask
"Do you think there's a single good guy out there for me?"
They know me too well. I'm a person filled with many questions.
At the end of every day, I would have a monologue with myself and most days I imagined myself talking to God. -true story-
And lately I realized the question gets frequent.
One day a friend asked me
"Why didn't you give this guy a go? Why so closed up?"
And I answered
"Most guys don't know what they want with me. They get excited with the idea of who I am but when it comes down to it.. They just can't seem to call it anything"
Sad but true in more ways than one..
Then there's the wishy washy kind of guys. Where girls gets over protected over him. Makes you wanna say "Ah cmon.. this is total BS" . The one where you wonder if he has dated this or that girl before.
Then there's an average joe who does not want the world to know about you two.
In the end, all said the same thing
"You are a fun girl to be with....but I can't"
Truth is
I can't is a milder term to I don't want to.
"Do you think there's a single good guy out there for me?"
They know me too well. I'm a person filled with many questions.
At the end of every day, I would have a monologue with myself and most days I imagined myself talking to God. -true story-
And lately I realized the question gets frequent.
One day a friend asked me
"Why didn't you give this guy a go? Why so closed up?"
And I answered
"Most guys don't know what they want with me. They get excited with the idea of who I am but when it comes down to it.. They just can't seem to call it anything"
Sad but true in more ways than one..
Then there's the wishy washy kind of guys. Where girls gets over protected over him. Makes you wanna say "Ah cmon.. this is total BS" . The one where you wonder if he has dated this or that girl before.
Then there's an average joe who does not want the world to know about you two.
In the end, all said the same thing
"You are a fun girl to be with....but I can't"
Truth is
I can't is a milder term to I don't want to.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
When you are about to step out of your current company.. the ending is either
Sweet or Bitter.
Just like any goodbyes would be.
When I think of leaving my current job, I always imagined a sweet –no grudges goodbyes
But in reality, the later proved to be true.
In my years of service, I’ve heard many sad story about how a boss would get into arguments with staff when they are about to leave the company.
Sadly, I am also reliving that story.
Prior to me joining this department, I was told it’s a nasty department to be in.
A people department with unsmiley faces to simply put.
And the impression, proved to be true.
Here’s the deal
My position used to be occupied by 2 person.
The first person requested for a transfer.
The second person resigned
Then there’s me, whom Insha Allah will be starting a new job elsewhere.
All three, wanted out because of 1 leadership
All three were deemed as “people person”
All were recruited to be the “smile” ambassador.
Here’s the fact
A person can change the perception of this place
But
It always starts with a leadership of that place.
Leader sets the tone. Culture cultivated.
And the fact is
No smiley ambassador can lived in an unsmiley face.
In the end..
No perception can be tamed if it does not start with the leader.
Til then I remain your :) ambassador.
Sweet or Bitter.
Just like any goodbyes would be.
When I think of leaving my current job, I always imagined a sweet –no grudges goodbyes
But in reality, the later proved to be true.
In my years of service, I’ve heard many sad story about how a boss would get into arguments with staff when they are about to leave the company.
Sadly, I am also reliving that story.
Prior to me joining this department, I was told it’s a nasty department to be in.
A people department with unsmiley faces to simply put.
And the impression, proved to be true.
Here’s the deal
My position used to be occupied by 2 person.
The first person requested for a transfer.
The second person resigned
Then there’s me, whom Insha Allah will be starting a new job elsewhere.
All three, wanted out because of 1 leadership
All three were deemed as “people person”
All were recruited to be the “smile” ambassador.
Here’s the fact
A person can change the perception of this place
But
It always starts with a leadership of that place.
Leader sets the tone. Culture cultivated.
And the fact is
No smiley ambassador can lived in an unsmiley face.
In the end..
No perception can be tamed if it does not start with the leader.
Til then I remain your :) ambassador.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Buck- et list
I want
1. One more Kings of Leon concert. Nothing beats this band live performance.
2. One Republic concert in germany. Why? Biggest fan base means better performance
3. Lifehouse concert in the midwest of U.S
4. World island hopping - best diving spots, I want to see sharks,whales and 1 more time swimming with sea turtle. I want to swim with dolphins.
I think when my mum was carrying me in her belly, perhaps, she wanted a baby boy.
1. One more Kings of Leon concert. Nothing beats this band live performance.
2. One Republic concert in germany. Why? Biggest fan base means better performance
3. Lifehouse concert in the midwest of U.S
4. World island hopping - best diving spots, I want to see sharks,whales and 1 more time swimming with sea turtle. I want to swim with dolphins.
I think when my mum was carrying me in her belly, perhaps, she wanted a baby boy.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Head turns
"You know what I like to do when I walk next to you?"
"What?"
"Count how many heads that turns to look at you"
So says ex beau.
A little note : This is not a show off entry but rather a realization for me
I'm with a new image now, with hijab to be precise
And now I realized that I am no longer a head turner.
A little note : This is just a venting entry
There are many days that I feel less pretty in it to be honest.
It does dampened my esteem.
Especially when you see hot girls walking past you and you thought
"See those girls, can just take a pick at whichever guy they want"
And when u get remarks like
"U r prettier without it"
I know it's just little remarks but sometime I thought about it a lot.
I hope I have the strength to go thru it :)
"What?"
"Count how many heads that turns to look at you"
So says ex beau.
A little note : This is not a show off entry but rather a realization for me
I'm with a new image now, with hijab to be precise
And now I realized that I am no longer a head turner.
A little note : This is just a venting entry
There are many days that I feel less pretty in it to be honest.
It does dampened my esteem.
Especially when you see hot girls walking past you and you thought
"See those girls, can just take a pick at whichever guy they want"
And when u get remarks like
"U r prettier without it"
I know it's just little remarks but sometime I thought about it a lot.
I hope I have the strength to go thru it :)
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Al Araf
"Musa said to his people : "Seek help in Allah and be patient.
Verily, the earth is Allah's. He gives it as a heritage to
Whom He wills od His slaves; and the (blessed) end is for the
Muttaqqun "
7:128
Verily, the earth is Allah's. He gives it as a heritage to
Whom He wills od His slaves; and the (blessed) end is for the
Muttaqqun "
7:128
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Him-s
People can tell you all sort of stuff about love. How it makes one feel or how badly it hurts.
I guess I know a thing or two about it too.
He likes couple tee, I hate it but I wear it.
He likes soccer, I can only take 15mins of it but I watched it
He likes networking and programming, is that Polish? But I try to understand it.
He likes golf, I doze off mentally but my eyes are awake.
So you accommodate because you WANT to. Mostly because it’s their company you like.
I am sure the multiple “he”s did the same thing for me..
Listened to the same story all over again
Listened to my Arctic Monkeys cd all over again
Listened to me going gaga for Kaka now Torres
Listened to my multiple AuWWwss and Wohoos!
But that’s what people do, they accommodate.
I’ve also come to learn a few things from the multiple hims
A few adventurous things
I learned to eat masak lemak
I learned that Paul Reed Smith is a guitar brand
I know who is Allen Iverson
I know that Ashworth is a golf brand.
We can all be intrigued by this feeling and places we go. We can start at the same page and end on a different book.
In the end, it just does not work out.
You tell yourself to hope for someone, you deserve someone better and honestly you do.
But all it takes is for one person to recognize that you are his exceptions.
All the rules he imposed previously, are broken.
All the places he venture to, he will go with you.
And you want him to be proud of being with you.
Always hope but never expect.
When that day comes and you meet the only him. He will be thankful that you did not get back with the multiple hims.
But til you meet him.
You pray because only God knows who is best for you.
I guess I know a thing or two about it too.
He likes couple tee, I hate it but I wear it.
He likes soccer, I can only take 15mins of it but I watched it
He likes networking and programming, is that Polish? But I try to understand it.
He likes golf, I doze off mentally but my eyes are awake.
So you accommodate because you WANT to. Mostly because it’s their company you like.
I am sure the multiple “he”s did the same thing for me..
Listened to the same story all over again
Listened to my Arctic Monkeys cd all over again
Listened to me going gaga for Kaka now Torres
Listened to my multiple AuWWwss and Wohoos!
But that’s what people do, they accommodate.
I’ve also come to learn a few things from the multiple hims
A few adventurous things
I learned to eat masak lemak
I learned that Paul Reed Smith is a guitar brand
I know who is Allen Iverson
I know that Ashworth is a golf brand.
We can all be intrigued by this feeling and places we go. We can start at the same page and end on a different book.
In the end, it just does not work out.
You tell yourself to hope for someone, you deserve someone better and honestly you do.
But all it takes is for one person to recognize that you are his exceptions.
All the rules he imposed previously, are broken.
All the places he venture to, he will go with you.
And you want him to be proud of being with you.
Always hope but never expect.
When that day comes and you meet the only him. He will be thankful that you did not get back with the multiple hims.
But til you meet him.
You pray because only God knows who is best for you.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
1,2,3,4
So it's true, Muslim man can get married up til four.
-AND-
God created women with more desires as compared to man. We are soft and sensitive in nature.
So you know where this is heading to?
The Polygamy issue.
My stand? I have not thought about it thoroughly. Let me;
1. Find a man
2. Get married
Then only speak/worry about the big vocab : POLYGAMY
Here's the usual scenario
Man's saving grace: It is allowed in Islam.
Women's saving grace: Are we talking lust or just?
Typical of both men and woman.
So I was reading Surah An-Nisa' (The Women)
Here is what I found
I believe the criteria of girls that a guy can marry more are orphans and according to stories of Prophets , most women are either divorced or slaves.
Not a young, single, career woman that are well taken care off :P
If you see clearly, Muslim women are well respected. Their rights are clearly stated in the Quran. As contrary to "Western" assumptions. I suppose Yvonne Ridley comes across this surah too as she is writing about muslim women and their rights.
The word in bold pretty much sums it up.:)
I believe Allah knows best. He is All Knowing and He is All Just.
Polygamy on a man's part is bigger than what a typical man dream off.
I believe one should follow His Guidance, treat their woman right, financially stable and the terms and conditions goes on- before one decided to get married to more wives.
I believe woman should really know ourselves and emotions well, be close to God, read the rewards/punishment if one's husband decided to embarked on polygamy. Soul searching to sum it up.
POLYGAMY is a big word, more difficult than just counting 1,2,3,4.
It is not just pure leisure nor pure drama.
I respect those who are able to go through emotional journey with polygamy.
Till then, I remain a humble servant.
Have a blissful day everyone.
-AND-
God created women with more desires as compared to man. We are soft and sensitive in nature.
So you know where this is heading to?
The Polygamy issue.
My stand? I have not thought about it thoroughly. Let me;
1. Find a man
2. Get married
Then only speak/worry about the big vocab : POLYGAMY
Here's the usual scenario
Man's saving grace: It is allowed in Islam.
Women's saving grace: Are we talking lust or just?
Typical of both men and woman.
So I was reading Surah An-Nisa' (The Women)
Here is what I found
They ask your legal instruction concerning women, say : Allah instructs you about them and about what is recited to you in the Book concerning orphan girls whom you give not the prescribed portions (as regarded Mahr and inheritance) and yet whom you desire to marry, and (concerning) the children who are weak and oppressed, and that you stand firm for justice to orphans. And whatever good you do, Allah is Ever All-Knower of it. 4:127
I believe the criteria of girls that a guy can marry more are orphans and according to stories of Prophets , most women are either divorced or slaves.
Not a young, single, career woman that are well taken care off :P
And if woman fears cruelty or desertion on her husband's part, there is no sin on them both if they make terms of peace between themselves; and making peace is better. And human inner self is swayed by greed. But if you do good and keep away from evil, verily, Allah is Ever Well-Acquainted with what you do 4:128
If you see clearly, Muslim women are well respected. Their rights are clearly stated in the Quran. As contrary to "Western" assumptions. I suppose Yvonne Ridley comes across this surah too as she is writing about muslim women and their rights.
You will never be able to do perfect justice between wives even if it is your ardent desire, so do not incline too much(to one of them by giving her more of your time and provision) so as to leave (the other) hanging (i.e neither divorce or married). And if you do justice, and do all that is right and fear Allah (by keeping away from all that is wrong), then Allah is Ever Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. 4:129
The word in bold pretty much sums it up.:)
But if they separate (by divorce), Allah will provide abundance for everyone of them from His bounty. And Allah is Ever All-Sufficient for His creatures' needs, All Wise 4:128
I believe Allah knows best. He is All Knowing and He is All Just.
Polygamy on a man's part is bigger than what a typical man dream off.
I believe one should follow His Guidance, treat their woman right, financially stable and the terms and conditions goes on- before one decided to get married to more wives.
I believe woman should really know ourselves and emotions well, be close to God, read the rewards/punishment if one's husband decided to embarked on polygamy. Soul searching to sum it up.
POLYGAMY is a big word, more difficult than just counting 1,2,3,4.
It is not just pure leisure nor pure drama.
I respect those who are able to go through emotional journey with polygamy.
Till then, I remain a humble servant.
Have a blissful day everyone.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
The women I inspired to be
Haven't blog for a tad bit. Not going to brief you on the going ons of my life.
I want to talk about women. Not women empowerment but women who have inspired me recently.
The first woman that has greatly inspired me would be
Aisyah (May Allah be pleased with her), wife of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W
Her admirable attributes in my eyes
1. Charitable
Once Aisyah R.A received 70,000 dirhams and all of which she donated to the poor. Subahanallah, these days it is hard to find women of such value.
2. Her inquisitive nature
She would ask Prophet Muhammad S.A.W to explain in details almost about everything until she gets it.
There are of course many other qualities about her that I love as I read my mounting amount of books.
Frankly, I did not elaborate much because
1. I might remember her story only briefly at the moment (hence I'm afraid if I misquoted anything)
2. I might spend all night searching for specific stories that I thought of (see clause above -> mounting amount of books)
The 2nd women that has greatly inspired me would be
Yvonne Ridley
She is a British journalist who converted into Islam 2 1/2 years ago. She wrote the book "In the hands of the The Taliban’s".
How she converted was rather interesting. She was captured by the Taliban when she managed to get into Afghanistan for her assignment.
How was freed by the Taliban? She promised them that she will learn and read the Al Quran.
Amazingly she kept her promise once she flew back to U.K.
Before learning about Islam she thought Islam promoted the idea of man beating wife and women as 2nd class citizen.
To her amazement, she found out women's right is promoted largely in the Al Quran.
Now in her hijab, she has been the voice of many Muslim societies. Be it in Britain or the world.
I could seriously relate to her stories because I too wear a hijab now, for almost 20 days Alhamdulillah.
Every time when I feel uncertain or down about my recent hijrah, I would reaffirm myself and say "You are doing this for Allah and there is no other reason greater than that" and secondly I would always remember Yvonne Ridley.
Her strength and her bravery of speaking out is something to be admirable of.
For now that is just 2 of the women that has greatly inspires me.
I admit, I'm too far from perfect when it comes to following the right path.
Even though in my hijab, I still love the sound of Arctic Monkeys and Kings of Leon. I would rave about how Kings of Leon will be coming up with a new album "Come around sun down" out Oct 14. (See I'm even promoting it now :P)
I would still watch the video of Lolla Palooza concert.
I am still fanatic about coca cola and its merchandise (Drinking one right now!)
I am not shy about my Wohooo's and AuuwwwWw's
I guess all of that is a little hard to tame. It has been a part of me for such a long time.
However, I am trying to do my best and adhere to the Sunnah as much as I could. Thou on many occasions I fell short.
Anyway enough of my rants hope all of u have a great last 10 days of Ramadhan. Make the best out of it.
I am sure the woman that inspires you has a great deal of values already embedded in u.
Have a blessed night everyone :)
I want to talk about women. Not women empowerment but women who have inspired me recently.
The first woman that has greatly inspired me would be
Aisyah (May Allah be pleased with her), wife of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W
Her admirable attributes in my eyes
1. Charitable
Once Aisyah R.A received 70,000 dirhams and all of which she donated to the poor. Subahanallah, these days it is hard to find women of such value.
2. Her inquisitive nature
She would ask Prophet Muhammad S.A.W to explain in details almost about everything until she gets it.
There are of course many other qualities about her that I love as I read my mounting amount of books.
Frankly, I did not elaborate much because
1. I might remember her story only briefly at the moment (hence I'm afraid if I misquoted anything)
2. I might spend all night searching for specific stories that I thought of (see clause above -> mounting amount of books)
The 2nd women that has greatly inspired me would be
Yvonne Ridley
She is a British journalist who converted into Islam 2 1/2 years ago. She wrote the book "In the hands of the The Taliban’s".
How she converted was rather interesting. She was captured by the Taliban when she managed to get into Afghanistan for her assignment.
How was freed by the Taliban? She promised them that she will learn and read the Al Quran.
Amazingly she kept her promise once she flew back to U.K.
Before learning about Islam she thought Islam promoted the idea of man beating wife and women as 2nd class citizen.
To her amazement, she found out women's right is promoted largely in the Al Quran.
Now in her hijab, she has been the voice of many Muslim societies. Be it in Britain or the world.
I could seriously relate to her stories because I too wear a hijab now, for almost 20 days Alhamdulillah.
Every time when I feel uncertain or down about my recent hijrah, I would reaffirm myself and say "You are doing this for Allah and there is no other reason greater than that" and secondly I would always remember Yvonne Ridley.
Her strength and her bravery of speaking out is something to be admirable of.
For now that is just 2 of the women that has greatly inspires me.
I admit, I'm too far from perfect when it comes to following the right path.
Even though in my hijab, I still love the sound of Arctic Monkeys and Kings of Leon. I would rave about how Kings of Leon will be coming up with a new album "Come around sun down" out Oct 14. (See I'm even promoting it now :P)
I would still watch the video of Lolla Palooza concert.
I am still fanatic about coca cola and its merchandise (Drinking one right now!)
I am not shy about my Wohooo's and AuuwwwWw's
I guess all of that is a little hard to tame. It has been a part of me for such a long time.
However, I am trying to do my best and adhere to the Sunnah as much as I could. Thou on many occasions I fell short.
Anyway enough of my rants hope all of u have a great last 10 days of Ramadhan. Make the best out of it.
I am sure the woman that inspires you has a great deal of values already embedded in u.
Have a blessed night everyone :)
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
If I could sum up my weekend in one word : R.A.N.D.O.M
Don’t worry I am not about to give all of you my over the weekend activities in chronological manner. I think, therefore I am not that vain.
My weekend was random… Busy to in other words…. Fun- painted all over the bigger picture.
However, I’m just going to blab about one
A night out with my high school sweethearts
The theme was “Sexy Secretary”. The initial plan was dressing up as one.
However if you had a day like I have before going to the event, you would know that initial plan should be out of the window.
With a full day schedule and 4 hours of sleep. I could only manage to wear the first dress I saw in my closet and off I went.
My girlfriends said that I have been out of the scene for a bit and I can’t skip this one. Frankly, I was not going to skip this one.
Sweetly enough one of the things we were celebrating that night was Shantiya and I turned 26.
Besides the fact that I have grown old. We were also celebrating the fact that Mike proposed to our friend, Grace.
Yup, love is all around. You should see them, their eyes sparkles.
Then of course Jan off to Barcelona in October. I’m going to miss her. She has been the person I would seek for when I need logic to kick in. Proud of her .
Last but not least, Fiza and her new hijrah. Yup, my lovely friend just started wearing tudung. When asked, she answered “I woke up one day and I feel macam nak pakai tudung. So here I am”
So here’s to the next phase,
To Grace for a new beginning with her soul mate
To Jan for a new move and adventure
To Fiza for a new found contentment and closeness to God
It is a real pleasure to be celebrating it alongside with all of you :)
My weekend was random… Busy to in other words…. Fun- painted all over the bigger picture.
However, I’m just going to blab about one
A night out with my high school sweethearts
The theme was “Sexy Secretary”. The initial plan was dressing up as one.
However if you had a day like I have before going to the event, you would know that initial plan should be out of the window.
With a full day schedule and 4 hours of sleep. I could only manage to wear the first dress I saw in my closet and off I went.
My girlfriends said that I have been out of the scene for a bit and I can’t skip this one. Frankly, I was not going to skip this one.
Sweetly enough one of the things we were celebrating that night was Shantiya and I turned 26.
Besides the fact that I have grown old. We were also celebrating the fact that Mike proposed to our friend, Grace.
Yup, love is all around. You should see them, their eyes sparkles.
Then of course Jan off to Barcelona in October. I’m going to miss her. She has been the person I would seek for when I need logic to kick in. Proud of her .
Last but not least, Fiza and her new hijrah. Yup, my lovely friend just started wearing tudung. When asked, she answered “I woke up one day and I feel macam nak pakai tudung. So here I am”
So here’s to the next phase,
To Grace for a new beginning with her soul mate
To Jan for a new move and adventure
To Fiza for a new found contentment and closeness to God
It is a real pleasure to be celebrating it alongside with all of you :)
Monday, July 12, 2010
He makes you wanna...
What USHER naturally make you do
1.Show off your ticket
Because it has a big bold USHER printed on and a tiny price seating on it
2.Forgot who you came with
Well mostly for couples…. Think Mira can’t stop apologizing to her hubby. Qila almost forgot her bf’s hand is around her shoulder
3.Makes you text
I have friends on every tier starting from cheapest to highest price. Seemed like at USHER everyone wanna hollaaa!!!
4.Feel like you are with him
Mira laughed at me when she caught me singing as if I’m in a deep conversation with Usher. Yup, guilty as charge
5.Dance through the nite
It’s Usher. The voice, the moves.. Nuff said
6.Want to turn lesbian for a night
The dancers… oh so very hot! They beat Pussycat Dolls to the pulp. Not that I like PCD anyways.
7.Put your hands up like this!
8.Remember the night before in the morning after
Yup.. I know I did
9. Make us all a happy camper
10.Make you go
Oh My Gosh!!!
1.Show off your ticket
Because it has a big bold USHER printed on and a tiny price seating on it
2.Forgot who you came with
Well mostly for couples…. Think Mira can’t stop apologizing to her hubby. Qila almost forgot her bf’s hand is around her shoulder
3.Makes you text
I have friends on every tier starting from cheapest to highest price. Seemed like at USHER everyone wanna hollaaa!!!
4.Feel like you are with him
Mira laughed at me when she caught me singing as if I’m in a deep conversation with Usher. Yup, guilty as charge
5.Dance through the nite
It’s Usher. The voice, the moves.. Nuff said
6.Want to turn lesbian for a night
The dancers… oh so very hot! They beat Pussycat Dolls to the pulp. Not that I like PCD anyways.
7.Put your hands up like this!
8.Remember the night before in the morning after
Yup.. I know I did
9. Make us all a happy camper
10.Make you go
Oh My Gosh!!!
Hate List.. Not !
Here's the deal. I created a hate list. Wait no..
I had one person in my mind when I said Hate List.
At least that's what I thought until I heard her cough....
Yeah this person has been unjust in a few occasions. Simply a milder term... Catch my drift?
Then last Friday I heard her coughing. Out of nowhere I went "P..., are you ok? Do you need lozenges? I have"
She didn't answer
"P.....?"
"Yeah I'm ok"
Then paused. What did I just do?
I thought I hated her then lozenges?!! What the hell is wrong with me?
Ok fine I thought it was just a sudden reflex action what I just did.
Till I saw her walking off from the office and all that hatred went off and instead I said to her "P...., make sure you get enough rest ok"
So much for a hate list.. Never had one and I don't think I will ever have.
I had one person in my mind when I said Hate List.
At least that's what I thought until I heard her cough....
Yeah this person has been unjust in a few occasions. Simply a milder term... Catch my drift?
Then last Friday I heard her coughing. Out of nowhere I went "P..., are you ok? Do you need lozenges? I have"
She didn't answer
"P.....?"
"Yeah I'm ok"
Then paused. What did I just do?
I thought I hated her then lozenges?!! What the hell is wrong with me?
Ok fine I thought it was just a sudden reflex action what I just did.
Till I saw her walking off from the office and all that hatred went off and instead I said to her "P...., make sure you get enough rest ok"
So much for a hate list.. Never had one and I don't think I will ever have.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Bitch-fit
Something I would call someone after saying Morning ....., (in my head of course ...and a series of curse word to go along with it)
Usher, party of 5. Tonite :) Peace!
Monday, July 5, 2010
26 Candles...
Here's to Unbreakable Strength
Here's to Unmistakable Faith
Here's to Unexplainable Joy
Carpe Diem ; Seize the day, Make your life extraordinary :)
Til then, have a sunny day ahead folks :)
Monday, June 28, 2010
MAYBE it's his last World Cup
A few years ago, we had a discussion.
A lecturer asked us “So what brings people of all color together?”
Some of the answers:-
Smile
Language
Natural disaster
And in the midst of all that hands, a short one rose up and said “World Cup!!”
Besides new found respects from testosterone driven being, she killed it off by saying “Even females sit down to watch them k”
Yup that short armed, not yet blonde hair was me.
That was the year I knew the name of the “oh so handsome” Kaka.
I remember telling my dad “Goodness, I never see someone who looks good, run so good like that”
Dad shook his head and went “A guy can look good running? Only you could come up with that.”
That was also the year that my sister cursed at “that Argentina player for making David Beckham get the red card” or so she say.
But what I remembered most about world cup was …
My family staying up to watch Brazil match.
Dad in his proud yellow jersey.
Kakak and I was going off tune with “Ka Kaaaa… Ka Kaaaa”. You would only how that sounds if u watched the movie Evolution.
That was 4 years ago.
Since before I was not a soccer chic. Give me EPL or La Liga, I’ll doze off in 15 minutes (that is if you are lucky enough to get me to watch)
But we never miss the World Cup.
Recently I couldn’t sleep, after a few prayers, I saw dad walking to the living room at 2AM. Asked him who is playing
“USA vs Ghana” he said.
So I sat down because I heard USA is a good team, consistent and the underdog. Hence, I joined him.
Dad was for Ghana , I rooted for USA.
We watched it and I think we screamed a tad bit too loud, we woke my mother up. Who was sick at that time.
It was a good game. For the first time after a long time I watched soccer intently.
Then I asked my dad
“I know you like World Cup but how come this year you hardly miss a match?”
He asked me back “How old will I be the next world cup?”
“59”
“Well who knows this might be my last world cup.”
I was speechless.
Then I sat there with my old man, enjoying every minute of that game.
A lecturer asked us “So what brings people of all color together?”
Some of the answers:-
Smile
Language
Natural disaster
And in the midst of all that hands, a short one rose up and said “World Cup!!”
Besides new found respects from testosterone driven being, she killed it off by saying “Even females sit down to watch them k”
Yup that short armed, not yet blonde hair was me.
That was the year I knew the name of the “oh so handsome” Kaka.
I remember telling my dad “Goodness, I never see someone who looks good, run so good like that”
Dad shook his head and went “A guy can look good running? Only you could come up with that.”
That was also the year that my sister cursed at “that Argentina player for making David Beckham get the red card” or so she say.
But what I remembered most about world cup was …
My family staying up to watch Brazil match.
Dad in his proud yellow jersey.
Kakak and I was going off tune with “Ka Kaaaa… Ka Kaaaa”. You would only how that sounds if u watched the movie Evolution.
That was 4 years ago.
Since before I was not a soccer chic. Give me EPL or La Liga, I’ll doze off in 15 minutes (that is if you are lucky enough to get me to watch)
But we never miss the World Cup.
Recently I couldn’t sleep, after a few prayers, I saw dad walking to the living room at 2AM. Asked him who is playing
“USA vs Ghana” he said.
So I sat down because I heard USA is a good team, consistent and the underdog. Hence, I joined him.
Dad was for Ghana , I rooted for USA.
We watched it and I think we screamed a tad bit too loud, we woke my mother up. Who was sick at that time.
It was a good game. For the first time after a long time I watched soccer intently.
Then I asked my dad
“I know you like World Cup but how come this year you hardly miss a match?”
He asked me back “How old will I be the next world cup?”
“59”
“Well who knows this might be my last world cup.”
I was speechless.
Then I sat there with my old man, enjoying every minute of that game.
Monday, June 7, 2010
My new found harmony
Down with flu for 2 days after a year of flu-free period. Boo hoo hoo.
So I've been complaining about how hard it is to find good music. A good tune. Forget about great tune, it's almost extinct with the emergence of voice box and artist like Lady Gaga.
How funny that is, Lady Gaga's creative process is deemed as absolute junk in my book. What's weirder (if there's such fitting word) Lady Gaga manage to make necrophilia an "IN" thing.
As if we run out of definition when it comes to being sexy.
Since when a turn off became a turn on?
I don't know, you tell me.
So I search high and low for good music. By good it means music that does not do too much. Good melody, meaningful lyrics and have substance to it.
So subjective isn't it?
I came to terms that my taste in music is rather odd (at least everyone tells me so), rather eclectic, rather haywire at times. I don't blame them, chances are its true.
So I’m trying to connect the dots between having Flu-Lady Gaga-Good Music.
Found it!
Since I couldn't do much during my flu period, I do what I do best. Search for new bands to listen to.
The Lady Gaga part is just plain distraction. Her face popped out when I'm cringing thinking about music these days.
It bugs people that I am not well verse in "airplay music" and to be honest I am not proud of it.
Some people think it's me trying to be unique or rebellious. Believe it or not I stop listening to radios these days too. The music on air, make me cringe. An artist who has 2 or more hit songs on air is like a slap on the face for me. What's better, the songs on air are like broken tune. Same song repeated if not twice, 3 times within an hour.
I found 2 good bands in my endless search.
So, these 2 bands are namely Trent Dabbs and Wakey!Wakey! have really good sound and music.
Their music: rather mellow, raw and melodic.
Their instruments: your classic guitar, piano and violin. Nothing new but that's what I like about these 2 bands
Their lyrics: Poetic and deep.
Will we be hearing their music on our local radio station?
I don't think so.
These bands are not made for big cities that enjoy commercialism. This means commercial music where Katy Perry, Pitbull and Justin Biebier sell.
It's made for easy listening and maybe for those that love artists such as Switchfoot, The Fray, Gavin DeGraw, and Edwin McCain.
I think these two bands are also inspired by these artists.
How would I really classify these two bands?
In most genres, they could be qualified as ballad.
For me I would classify them as "The music I listen to after the rain"
I know, odd.
Again those that are dear enough would know, it's my favorite weather.
I would definitely line these 2 bands up with The Fray, Adele, Matthew Perryman, Switchfoot and Corrine Bailey Rae in my play list.
So yeah, hear them out.
Wakey!Wakey! Brooklyn. I though this song is amazing
Trent Dabbs Until You Won Me Over.
I'm going to head back to my bed, sulking and trying not to whine about having flu. Till then, count your blessings that today you are up and healthy :) Ciao Amiga!
So I've been complaining about how hard it is to find good music. A good tune. Forget about great tune, it's almost extinct with the emergence of voice box and artist like Lady Gaga.
How funny that is, Lady Gaga's creative process is deemed as absolute junk in my book. What's weirder (if there's such fitting word) Lady Gaga manage to make necrophilia an "IN" thing.
As if we run out of definition when it comes to being sexy.
Since when a turn off became a turn on?
I don't know, you tell me.
So I search high and low for good music. By good it means music that does not do too much. Good melody, meaningful lyrics and have substance to it.
So subjective isn't it?
I came to terms that my taste in music is rather odd (at least everyone tells me so), rather eclectic, rather haywire at times. I don't blame them, chances are its true.
So I’m trying to connect the dots between having Flu-Lady Gaga-Good Music.
Found it!
Since I couldn't do much during my flu period, I do what I do best. Search for new bands to listen to.
The Lady Gaga part is just plain distraction. Her face popped out when I'm cringing thinking about music these days.
It bugs people that I am not well verse in "airplay music" and to be honest I am not proud of it.
Some people think it's me trying to be unique or rebellious. Believe it or not I stop listening to radios these days too. The music on air, make me cringe. An artist who has 2 or more hit songs on air is like a slap on the face for me. What's better, the songs on air are like broken tune. Same song repeated if not twice, 3 times within an hour.
I found 2 good bands in my endless search.
So, these 2 bands are namely Trent Dabbs and Wakey!Wakey! have really good sound and music.
Their music: rather mellow, raw and melodic.
Their instruments: your classic guitar, piano and violin. Nothing new but that's what I like about these 2 bands
Their lyrics: Poetic and deep.
Will we be hearing their music on our local radio station?
I don't think so.
These bands are not made for big cities that enjoy commercialism. This means commercial music where Katy Perry, Pitbull and Justin Biebier sell.
It's made for easy listening and maybe for those that love artists such as Switchfoot, The Fray, Gavin DeGraw, and Edwin McCain.
I think these two bands are also inspired by these artists.
How would I really classify these two bands?
In most genres, they could be qualified as ballad.
For me I would classify them as "The music I listen to after the rain"
I know, odd.
Again those that are dear enough would know, it's my favorite weather.
I would definitely line these 2 bands up with The Fray, Adele, Matthew Perryman, Switchfoot and Corrine Bailey Rae in my play list.
So yeah, hear them out.
Wakey!Wakey! Brooklyn. I though this song is amazing
Trent Dabbs Until You Won Me Over.
I'm going to head back to my bed, sulking and trying not to whine about having flu. Till then, count your blessings that today you are up and healthy :) Ciao Amiga!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Khushu' in Solat
Since I knew how to pray up till a year ago, I prayed because that is what all Muslims have to do.
When I was young I was told “Sembahyang, kalau tak Tuhan marah”.
Not many gave a substantial answer or perhaps it was also due to my ignorance.
I used to envy those that pray not just for the sake of praying but actually look forward to it.
However I was always curious about feeling khushu’ in my prayers.
I caught myself saying “How I wish I could talk to Him like she did” whenever I saw a Muslimah taking her time in her prayers.
That was up till last year,
I remembered my first time feeling khushu’.
All around me felt vacuumed. I did not notice the cling and clatter of my environment.
It was just me, Him and utterances of Quran verses.
I remember breaking down and cry after I ended my prayers. I finally get what I wished for and that feeling was amazing.
It was just plain tranquility; I was, for once, able to silence my thoughts.
All my worries subside.
My body, soul and mind were at its absolute calmness.
My heart was filled with gratitude.
If only I could paint it with words.
Tonight I read on “Khushu’ in Salah” from the book “Prayer according to Sunnah” compiled by Prof. Muhammad Zulfiqar.
I like how Hatim Al Asamm describe how he performed his solat
I think the way he described it was perfect.
Till then have a good night and Salam :)
When I was young I was told “Sembahyang, kalau tak Tuhan marah”.
Not many gave a substantial answer or perhaps it was also due to my ignorance.
I used to envy those that pray not just for the sake of praying but actually look forward to it.
However I was always curious about feeling khushu’ in my prayers.
I caught myself saying “How I wish I could talk to Him like she did” whenever I saw a Muslimah taking her time in her prayers.
That was up till last year,
I remembered my first time feeling khushu’.
All around me felt vacuumed. I did not notice the cling and clatter of my environment.
It was just me, Him and utterances of Quran verses.
I remember breaking down and cry after I ended my prayers. I finally get what I wished for and that feeling was amazing.
It was just plain tranquility; I was, for once, able to silence my thoughts.
All my worries subside.
My body, soul and mind were at its absolute calmness.
My heart was filled with gratitude.
If only I could paint it with words.
Tonight I read on “Khushu’ in Salah” from the book “Prayer according to Sunnah” compiled by Prof. Muhammad Zulfiqar.
I like how Hatim Al Asamm describe how he performed his solat
“When it is near time of Salah, I perform a perfect Wudu’, and proceed to where I am going to pray and sit down there until the Salah begins. I become fully attentive to what I am about to do. I then stand up and pray, imagining the Ka’abah is in front of my eyes, Paradise on my right, Hell fire to my left and the Angel of death behind me. I imagine that it is the last Salah I’m about to perform, stand up in hope (in Allah, His Paradise and rewards ) and fear (from Allah’s torment in the Hell-fire) and recite the takbir with concentration. I recite the Quran calmly, make Ruku’ humbly, go into Sujjud with Khushu’ and then sit on my left leg foot laid on the floor and the right foot raised up, all the while praying with sincerity. Afterwards, I do not know (nor feel certain) if that Salah was accepted from me”
I think the way he described it was perfect.
Till then have a good night and Salam :)
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Book of manners
Jubayr ibn Nufayr reported that Mu'adh ibn Jabal said, "If you love someone, do not quarrel with him and do not annoy him. Do not ask others about him, for the one you ask might be his enemy and thus tell you things about him that are not true and thus break you apart."
Sunday, May 16, 2010
BOLD-ing Confusion
I dream about you last night...
Woke up thinking about you...
Contemplating if i should get you....
Woke up thinking about you...
Contemplating if i should get you....
Monday, April 19, 2010
If Allah wills
"And never say of anything, "I shall do such and such thing tomorrow."
"Except (with the saying), 'If Allah wills!' And remember your Lord when you forget and say 'It maybe that my Lord guides me to a nearer truth than this"
18:23, 18:24
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Dream...
Dr. Cafe Coffee, Mon't Kiara
While waiting for my Caramel Macchiato Latte, watching the barista patiently grinding the coffee bean to get the perfect single shot of espresso.
Admiring the process...
"Dear, think I want to be a barista."
"Not so hard to learn you know"
Went to Dr. Cafe Coffee again
While waiting for my Caramel Macchiato Latte, watching the barista patiently grinding the coffee bean to get the perfect single shot of espresso.
"Gosh, what are you staring at?"
"Just admiring the process dad. I think I want to be a barista."
Wonder where I can learn the art of coffee making. Maybe I should look it up.
In my dream, I would like to study master and became a part time barista somewhere in L.A. After I finish my work, I would go and lay my head on the sand and just take in the sound of the wave.
I know, every time I dream of a happy life, it is a moderate one. There is no dream too big or too small. For now, I dream that I am a barista working the process of making a perfect latte/ cappuccino.
Til then, have a sweet dream everyone :)
While waiting for my Caramel Macchiato Latte, watching the barista patiently grinding the coffee bean to get the perfect single shot of espresso.
Admiring the process...
"Dear, think I want to be a barista."
"Not so hard to learn you know"
Went to Dr. Cafe Coffee again
While waiting for my Caramel Macchiato Latte, watching the barista patiently grinding the coffee bean to get the perfect single shot of espresso.
"Gosh, what are you staring at?"
"Just admiring the process dad. I think I want to be a barista."
Wonder where I can learn the art of coffee making. Maybe I should look it up.
In my dream, I would like to study master and became a part time barista somewhere in L.A. After I finish my work, I would go and lay my head on the sand and just take in the sound of the wave.
I know, every time I dream of a happy life, it is a moderate one. There is no dream too big or too small. For now, I dream that I am a barista working the process of making a perfect latte/ cappuccino.
Til then, have a sweet dream everyone :)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Riffs Raffs
Meaning of Riffs Raffs
“Scattered thoughts; ramblings” -Lyanapedia
Riffs Raffs 1
Creating culture or revamping one is a hard task. Start with a person’s mindset. That’s the challenging part of creating an atmosphere. That has been the one that keeps me up at night. We’ll see if I make or break.
Riffs Raffs 2
A lot of things to read. Currently reading a book on sholat. Realized that our daily prayers, some of it are not even practice by Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. It is actually very simple than the way we were being taught. Will probably update it in my other blog. Insha’Allah. The amount of books and articles that I have to read can be overwhelming but well, I’ll save that for another day.
Riffs Raffs 3
Skating bring the uninspired me to the much inspired me.
Riffs Raffs 4
I don’t have to keep it all together at all time. Sometimes it’s good to let it all out. It’s better to feel something than to feel numb
Riffs Raffs 5
Been busy but have no idea with what. Hardly go out but it felt like time is moving fast.
Riffs Raffs 6
You only keep in touch with those you want to. I’m holding the end of the bargain but well I believe you are not too keen. Where ever you are all the best in life Champ. I am happy that your prayers are answered.
Riffs Raffs 7
Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant. But it's very important that you do it.
Or
Life exists and identity, as the powerful play goes on and you may create a verse. What will your verse be?
That’s the end of my riffs raffs folks, till then wishing all of you a blissful week ahead :)
“Scattered thoughts; ramblings” -Lyanapedia
Riffs Raffs 1
Creating culture or revamping one is a hard task. Start with a person’s mindset. That’s the challenging part of creating an atmosphere. That has been the one that keeps me up at night. We’ll see if I make or break.
Riffs Raffs 2
A lot of things to read. Currently reading a book on sholat. Realized that our daily prayers, some of it are not even practice by Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. It is actually very simple than the way we were being taught. Will probably update it in my other blog. Insha’Allah. The amount of books and articles that I have to read can be overwhelming but well, I’ll save that for another day.
Riffs Raffs 3
Skating bring the uninspired me to the much inspired me.
Riffs Raffs 4
I don’t have to keep it all together at all time. Sometimes it’s good to let it all out. It’s better to feel something than to feel numb
Riffs Raffs 5
Been busy but have no idea with what. Hardly go out but it felt like time is moving fast.
Riffs Raffs 6
You only keep in touch with those you want to. I’m holding the end of the bargain but well I believe you are not too keen. Where ever you are all the best in life Champ. I am happy that your prayers are answered.
Riffs Raffs 7
Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant. But it's very important that you do it.
Or
Life exists and identity, as the powerful play goes on and you may create a verse. What will your verse be?
That’s the end of my riffs raffs folks, till then wishing all of you a blissful week ahead :)
Friday, March 12, 2010
Buble Me, Frank-ly!
I was high on Buble…
Then I was high on Frankie…
Then Buble
Then Frankie
Then it goes on and on.
Spark your imagination yet? You bet I did!! Hahah
I’m not talking about getting it on (aha! I read your mind didn’t I)
I was talking about getting high-melt and then high again listening to Michael buble and Frank Sinatra, back to back.
There’s nothing wrong with suggestive title anyway, I bet it captured your attention.
Thing or two I realized about them Rat Pack Boys
Buble is modest yet boastful...
Let’s look at That’s All lyrics
“I can only give you love that lasts forever
And a promise to be near each time you call”
“I can only give you country walks in springtime
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall”
There are those I am sure who have told you
They would give you the world for a toy
All I have are these arms to enfold you
And a love even time can't destroy”
Did you read that?
I can ONLY give you love that lasts forever
He’s saying the only thing he could give is what all girls dreamed about having, yet he sounded so humble..
Such a deceiving man!!!
Frank Sinatra is right
New York, New York song
“I want to wake up in the city
That doesn’t sleep…”
“If I can make it there,
I can make it anywhere”
At first I doubted Frank’s words till I went to New York. I’ve never seen a city that’s as lively. Have so many lives too. It was packed and no one stop or walk slow.
I remember telling Aqilah “If I live here. Forget asking for recreational park, a space to walk pun I’ll be thankful”
But again New York is lovely, it does not sleep and just by looking at the city and the lives in it you know if u can make it in New York, you can make it anywhere.
Frankie and Buble told me what I wanted to hear.
“But I want you to know something, Baby
Yes, it's really true
I do hope that one day
they'll be a Me & Mrs. You”
And my favorite Frank Sinatra song of all time but a better rendition by buble
“And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.”
“Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm”
Every time I heard this song, I wish a guy would sing to me and just listening to them both I could just feel the love!
Yeah I know, I am just singing them out loud today.
Anyway I got to go. Both men is asking me to “fly with me, let’s fly let’s fly away!!!”
LyanaHighOn2LargeOrangeJuiceFromMcDandDancingToThemRatPackBoys
Then I was high on Frankie…
Then Buble
Then Frankie
Then it goes on and on.
Spark your imagination yet? You bet I did!! Hahah
I’m not talking about getting it on (aha! I read your mind didn’t I)
I was talking about getting high-melt and then high again listening to Michael buble and Frank Sinatra, back to back.
There’s nothing wrong with suggestive title anyway, I bet it captured your attention.
Thing or two I realized about them Rat Pack Boys
Buble is modest yet boastful...
Let’s look at That’s All lyrics
“I can only give you love that lasts forever
And a promise to be near each time you call”
“I can only give you country walks in springtime
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall”
There are those I am sure who have told you
They would give you the world for a toy
All I have are these arms to enfold you
And a love even time can't destroy”
Did you read that?
I can ONLY give you love that lasts forever
He’s saying the only thing he could give is what all girls dreamed about having, yet he sounded so humble..
Such a deceiving man!!!
Frank Sinatra is right
New York, New York song
“I want to wake up in the city
That doesn’t sleep…”
“If I can make it there,
I can make it anywhere”
At first I doubted Frank’s words till I went to New York. I’ve never seen a city that’s as lively. Have so many lives too. It was packed and no one stop or walk slow.
I remember telling Aqilah “If I live here. Forget asking for recreational park, a space to walk pun I’ll be thankful”
But again New York is lovely, it does not sleep and just by looking at the city and the lives in it you know if u can make it in New York, you can make it anywhere.
Frankie and Buble told me what I wanted to hear.
“But I want you to know something, Baby
Yes, it's really true
I do hope that one day
they'll be a Me & Mrs. You”
And my favorite Frank Sinatra song of all time but a better rendition by buble
“And that laugh that wrinkles your nose,
It touches my foolish heart.”
“Lovely ... Never, ever change.
Keep that breathless charm”
Every time I heard this song, I wish a guy would sing to me and just listening to them both I could just feel the love!
Yeah I know, I am just singing them out loud today.
Anyway I got to go. Both men is asking me to “fly with me, let’s fly let’s fly away!!!”
LyanaHighOn2LargeOrangeJuiceFromMcDandDancingToThemRatPackBoys
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Fifteen
I bet all of you have heard that song by Taylor Swift Fifteen
To be honest, I feel depressed when I hear that song.
Depressed not because of an old flame or whatsoever.
I just feel like running to Taylor Swift and protect her from thinking that love exists at such age.
In some cases they do. I know a lot of people who fell in love at 15 and were together for 3/4/5 years.
Contrary to her song, when I was 15, Love does not exist. I call those moments “trial and error”. I knew back then I am not going to end up marrying those boys that I knew.
I never call those I’ve dated when I was 15 as relationship.
Back in Main Convent, we usually date those boys in St. Michael or at least Anderson.
The version of dating back then was attending debate, international understanding day and school related activities.
So back then, I call those I’ve dated my friend and they were just that. Friends.
However, I can’t seem to get that song out of my head now.
When I was 15, it was just me running around school with friends, sneaking into libraries and well making a lot of noises, broke some hearts and well have a great laugh after that.
I’m glad I’ve experience that at that age…
So when “I was fifteen, when somebody told me they love me, I never believe it….”
PS:// Damn, pls get that song out of my head now
To be honest, I feel depressed when I hear that song.
Depressed not because of an old flame or whatsoever.
I just feel like running to Taylor Swift and protect her from thinking that love exists at such age.
In some cases they do. I know a lot of people who fell in love at 15 and were together for 3/4/5 years.
Contrary to her song, when I was 15, Love does not exist. I call those moments “trial and error”. I knew back then I am not going to end up marrying those boys that I knew.
I never call those I’ve dated when I was 15 as relationship.
Back in Main Convent, we usually date those boys in St. Michael or at least Anderson.
The version of dating back then was attending debate, international understanding day and school related activities.
So back then, I call those I’ve dated my friend and they were just that. Friends.
However, I can’t seem to get that song out of my head now.
When I was 15, it was just me running around school with friends, sneaking into libraries and well making a lot of noises, broke some hearts and well have a great laugh after that.
I’m glad I’ve experience that at that age…
So when “I was fifteen, when somebody told me they love me, I never believe it….”
PS:// Damn, pls get that song out of my head now
Friday, February 19, 2010
Believe
"So do not become weak (against your enemy), nor be sad, and you will be
superior (in victory) if you are indeed a (true) believer"
3:139
Charity, Anger & Pardon
"Those who spend (freely) whether in prosperity, or in adversity; who restrain anger, and pardon (all) men- For Allah loves those who do good"
Al Imran ayah 135
It talks about charity that comes in many forms. Does not just mean through money spent, prayers in it is a form of charity.
It was said in a hadith that the strength of a men is measured by his ability to restrain anger; I forgot which hadith quoted that. Will definitely go home and try to recall.
There are times in our life that we couldn’t let go off that anger that haunts us about someone. We have to come to terms with it, forgive ourselves and others. Get rid off ill feelings so that we could live life of contentment. Better still, do it for His blessing
Al Imran ayah 135
It talks about charity that comes in many forms. Does not just mean through money spent, prayers in it is a form of charity.
It was said in a hadith that the strength of a men is measured by his ability to restrain anger; I forgot which hadith quoted that. Will definitely go home and try to recall.
There are times in our life that we couldn’t let go off that anger that haunts us about someone. We have to come to terms with it, forgive ourselves and others. Get rid off ill feelings so that we could live life of contentment. Better still, do it for His blessing
Story of Angels and Prophet S.A.W
Some angels came to see Prophet S.A.W while he’s asleep.
Some of them said “He’s sleeping”
Some said “His eyes is sleeping but his heart is awake”
So the angel went on saying “There is an example of this companion of yours”
“His example is that of a man who has built a house then offered therein a banquet and sent an inviter to invite the people. Those who accepted the invitation of the inviter entered the house and ate the banquet, those who did not, did not enter the house nor did they eat the banquet”
Then the angles translate it to make Prophet understand better.
“The house stands for Paradise and the Call Maker is Muhammad S.A.W and whoever obeys Muhammad S.A.W obeys Allah S.W.T and whoever disobey Muhammad S.A.W disobey Allah S.W.T. Muhammad S.A.W separated the people”
Narrated by Jabir Bin Abdullah, Sahih Al Bukhari 9/7281
I just thought the way it is presented is just great metaphor.
Some of them said “He’s sleeping”
Some said “His eyes is sleeping but his heart is awake”
So the angel went on saying “There is an example of this companion of yours”
“His example is that of a man who has built a house then offered therein a banquet and sent an inviter to invite the people. Those who accepted the invitation of the inviter entered the house and ate the banquet, those who did not, did not enter the house nor did they eat the banquet”
Then the angles translate it to make Prophet understand better.
“The house stands for Paradise and the Call Maker is Muhammad S.A.W and whoever obeys Muhammad S.A.W obeys Allah S.W.T and whoever disobey Muhammad S.A.W disobey Allah S.W.T. Muhammad S.A.W separated the people”
Narrated by Jabir Bin Abdullah, Sahih Al Bukhari 9/7281
I just thought the way it is presented is just great metaphor.
Monday, February 15, 2010
32 & the weekend
I was asked the other day on how many shoes I own. I manage to take them all out and it is 32 pairs. At least I manage to give one pair to a family friend. So that's ok kan?
Then today I went to test my baseball skill at 1utama batting cages. It was awesome. We were hitting about more than 30 balls. I got teased a lot but hey 5 misses out of 20, that's pretty something ain't it?
Am at my cousin's place. Omar Ameer Ariff's B'day today. Went to buy his gift earlier. Got a huge kiss from him , such a lovely boy. Here's Omar Ameer Ariff
They've got a brand new karaoke machine at home. Pretty cool. Speaking of which, they are calling me right now to get my grove on.
Will leave you with my favorite song for now, it's james morisson Love is Hard. Later!
Then today I went to test my baseball skill at 1utama batting cages. It was awesome. We were hitting about more than 30 balls. I got teased a lot but hey 5 misses out of 20, that's pretty something ain't it?
Am at my cousin's place. Omar Ameer Ariff's B'day today. Went to buy his gift earlier. Got a huge kiss from him , such a lovely boy. Here's Omar Ameer Ariff
They've got a brand new karaoke machine at home. Pretty cool. Speaking of which, they are calling me right now to get my grove on.
Will leave you with my favorite song for now, it's james morisson Love is Hard. Later!
Friday, February 12, 2010
Things I will never understand
Below are the lists of things I don’t understand
1.Claiming the good deeds
If you do something good, please do not wait for credit or anything in return. Orang tak suruh buat tapi dah nak buat , macam mana kan?
Then when situation gets tough, please do not claim your good deeds. Better still, if it’s recognition that you want, plese do not proceed with them good deeds.
Why claim for something that you want to do voluntarily?
2.There’s life outside of you
Ever met someone that talk or write so much about oneself? Don’t you want tell them that life is not just made up of “the one and only him/her?” While you are too self consumed of yourself, let me attend to others first ok?
3.Holding on
Not letting go of your past is another thing I hardly understand. So, you are friends but do you always have to keep in touch? Jeez!!
Some say letting go of their past is rejecting those you love..
Guess what honey? Breaking up by itself is a solid form of rejection
4.Adding those to fulfill your curiosity.
I have 100 over friend’s request. I hardly go through them. One time I did, saw one request, called up a mutual friend asking what’s up.
Added the person and deleted to see if I know him/her. Got through scolding and the only part I regret doing is apologizing for things that are not of my own doing.
You see I scratch my head only if it itches, I dance only when I hear music. So keep your friends close and if they are curious, perhaps you should talk them through it. I usually mind my own business.
So yeah above all, these are the things I never understand. I think it has a lot to do with maturity. Til then, have a good holiday.
1.Claiming the good deeds
If you do something good, please do not wait for credit or anything in return. Orang tak suruh buat tapi dah nak buat , macam mana kan?
Then when situation gets tough, please do not claim your good deeds. Better still, if it’s recognition that you want, plese do not proceed with them good deeds.
Why claim for something that you want to do voluntarily?
2.There’s life outside of you
Ever met someone that talk or write so much about oneself? Don’t you want tell them that life is not just made up of “the one and only him/her?” While you are too self consumed of yourself, let me attend to others first ok?
3.Holding on
Not letting go of your past is another thing I hardly understand. So, you are friends but do you always have to keep in touch? Jeez!!
Some say letting go of their past is rejecting those you love..
Guess what honey? Breaking up by itself is a solid form of rejection
4.Adding those to fulfill your curiosity.
I have 100 over friend’s request. I hardly go through them. One time I did, saw one request, called up a mutual friend asking what’s up.
Added the person and deleted to see if I know him/her. Got through scolding and the only part I regret doing is apologizing for things that are not of my own doing.
You see I scratch my head only if it itches, I dance only when I hear music. So keep your friends close and if they are curious, perhaps you should talk them through it. I usually mind my own business.
So yeah above all, these are the things I never understand. I think it has a lot to do with maturity. Til then, have a good holiday.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
My 4 Elements of Contentment
I have so many things to blog about but first let me blog about something close to my heart…
I’m going to talk about the 4 elements..Or maybe just 2 if I am too lazy
Nope it’s not earth,wind,water and fire…
It’s Shoes, Pants, Handbags and Accessories..
Yes, the elements any girls would want to have…
Let’s start with something close to my heart, something that hits me right to my money sense. Something that by looking at it, I knew I would fall in love..
It is Ladies and Gentlemen..
Shoes
I have 1 big closet of shoes, yes I do. I am very particular about which shoe goes with which clothing article. However in the midst of those free flows of shoes, you can never spot a sandal.
I know, if it’s not one inch high or more, I wouldn’t call it shoes…
Ask anyone of my colleague they would say I would go “khuysuk” looking at someone shoes.
My boss is cruel cuz she has plenty of shoes I like. One of the distinctive tastes we both share. I could even spot her envious eyes when I walk in with a new pair of shoes. Better still, now, she’s copying my style of shoes. Hah!! Guilty as charged!
I saw and I could recall immediately where she bought them. Hah!! Guilty as charged again!
Actually I was thinking getting the same pair but in a bolder color. Red… yes you heard me right, Red.
The thing about shoes is, if given the right one, it’ll make you legs look slender. Trust me, only certain shoes make you stand tall.
It also looks at the body type you have. If you are a “healthy” and “petite” please don’t opt for sandals. It doesn’t do u justice. Not at all. Perhaps opt for an open toe high heels with 1 ½ inch as the highest.
Ok cut to the chase, you want advice? Hire me, I don’t charge high, the least you could do is get me a spa holiday and I’ll be content.
Then there are Pants, the one thing besides IQ that separates us human from well, baboons.
Yes, I get a lot of compliments when it comes to choosing the right pair of jeans and work pants. I am fussy as hell and no, I hate skinny fit. Some looks nice but most looks.. like “a belalang”. Don’t ask me, I just don’t know how I come up to that conclusion.
The thing about pants is, you got to make 3 things look amazing. The “irrisistable view” I call it.
The calves,the thighs and yes, those trunks your hiding
.
Let’s talk about calves, you may not have the most tone calves but if there is anything I learn about pants it is the second greatest art of deception.
First being make up.
I am just 5 feet tall but given the right heels , pants and dashing confident I stand taller than 5feet.
Yes, I am not shy to acknowledge it either.
So you may want to wear something that’s not too tight on your calves and not too loose. A boot cut is not flattering if it’s not waist high. I would call them the “editor’s pants”. Boot cut is amazing if they are high waist and tucked in with a cuff-like shirt.
Can’t imagine? Hire me, I’ll do up your pants good and make ‘em junks in the trunk look good.
Then there’s thighs, do not underestimate the power of a pants that makes your thighs look good. But again, a good thigh is a result of a good work out.
Want to know which work out do them calves, thighs and trunks look good? Hire me, I make your lower body one of the seven wonders of the world.
So yes, I manage to talk about the 2 elements that make my life content. My resume would for style is well…. kickin’ off. So would you help me out building my customer portfolio?
If you don’t have money, I would opt for spa holidays, fine dining, shopping voucher of RM1000 per day in The gardens/ Pavillion. See I charge very low consultation fee. Doesn’t get any better than that?
Why am I blogging about it this time?
I caved in
A week ago I bought THIS….
I told myself no more.. no more
Then I bought… THESE
The bag looks better in real life.
Damn it! Hire me already so that I could revel on other people’s triumph of buying and just by looking…. I think.. I THINK! I would be content… So anyone?
I’m going to talk about the 4 elements..Or maybe just 2 if I am too lazy
Nope it’s not earth,wind,water and fire…
It’s Shoes, Pants, Handbags and Accessories..
Yes, the elements any girls would want to have…
Let’s start with something close to my heart, something that hits me right to my money sense. Something that by looking at it, I knew I would fall in love..
It is Ladies and Gentlemen..
Shoes
I have 1 big closet of shoes, yes I do. I am very particular about which shoe goes with which clothing article. However in the midst of those free flows of shoes, you can never spot a sandal.
I know, if it’s not one inch high or more, I wouldn’t call it shoes…
Ask anyone of my colleague they would say I would go “khuysuk” looking at someone shoes.
My boss is cruel cuz she has plenty of shoes I like. One of the distinctive tastes we both share. I could even spot her envious eyes when I walk in with a new pair of shoes. Better still, now, she’s copying my style of shoes. Hah!! Guilty as charged!
I saw and I could recall immediately where she bought them. Hah!! Guilty as charged again!
Actually I was thinking getting the same pair but in a bolder color. Red… yes you heard me right, Red.
The thing about shoes is, if given the right one, it’ll make you legs look slender. Trust me, only certain shoes make you stand tall.
It also looks at the body type you have. If you are a “healthy” and “petite” please don’t opt for sandals. It doesn’t do u justice. Not at all. Perhaps opt for an open toe high heels with 1 ½ inch as the highest.
Ok cut to the chase, you want advice? Hire me, I don’t charge high, the least you could do is get me a spa holiday and I’ll be content.
Then there are Pants, the one thing besides IQ that separates us human from well, baboons.
Yes, I get a lot of compliments when it comes to choosing the right pair of jeans and work pants. I am fussy as hell and no, I hate skinny fit. Some looks nice but most looks.. like “a belalang”. Don’t ask me, I just don’t know how I come up to that conclusion.
The thing about pants is, you got to make 3 things look amazing. The “irrisistable view” I call it.
The calves,the thighs and yes, those trunks your hiding
.
Let’s talk about calves, you may not have the most tone calves but if there is anything I learn about pants it is the second greatest art of deception.
First being make up.
I am just 5 feet tall but given the right heels , pants and dashing confident I stand taller than 5feet.
Yes, I am not shy to acknowledge it either.
So you may want to wear something that’s not too tight on your calves and not too loose. A boot cut is not flattering if it’s not waist high. I would call them the “editor’s pants”. Boot cut is amazing if they are high waist and tucked in with a cuff-like shirt.
Can’t imagine? Hire me, I’ll do up your pants good and make ‘em junks in the trunk look good.
Then there’s thighs, do not underestimate the power of a pants that makes your thighs look good. But again, a good thigh is a result of a good work out.
Want to know which work out do them calves, thighs and trunks look good? Hire me, I make your lower body one of the seven wonders of the world.
So yes, I manage to talk about the 2 elements that make my life content. My resume would for style is well…. kickin’ off. So would you help me out building my customer portfolio?
If you don’t have money, I would opt for spa holidays, fine dining, shopping voucher of RM1000 per day in The gardens/ Pavillion. See I charge very low consultation fee. Doesn’t get any better than that?
Why am I blogging about it this time?
I caved in
A week ago I bought THIS….
I told myself no more.. no more
Then I bought… THESE
The bag looks better in real life.
Damn it! Hire me already so that I could revel on other people’s triumph of buying and just by looking…. I think.. I THINK! I would be content… So anyone?
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Prayer of a Shopaholic
Dear God,
Grant me the serenity of not entering places like Tony Romas, Delicious and its decedents. My stomach is too humble for such heavenly food.
Dear God,
Grant me the protection from the temptations of Isetan. Forgive me as I am even a member of such group. Forgive my sins when I even took out my membership card at Robinson’s outlet. I have offended the Robinson’s employee.
Dear God,
Thank you for making me resists the lure of buying 5 pairs of shoes. I only bought one as I enter the heavenly kingdom of Charles & Keith. I couldn’t imagine a place overflowing with beautiful shoes at a 7th heaven’s price.
Dear God,
These days I have succumb to the calling of Rock Corner. Joss Stone whisper her soulful rhythm and blues in my ears last week. That sound “Free Me Up” is such a sinful melody. This week I got better by buying Maxwell, at least the chap talks about Pretty Wings. Such an angelic voice that you have bestowed on him.
Dear God,
Thanks for giving me a best friend by the name of Laura Mercier. She is expansive than my fellow Mac. However, she covers my eyes from the evils of bad cover up which I shall not mention here. I only had to buy her twice a year.
Dear God,
I admit, last night I succumb to the lurking of Isetan, to the beautiful creation of Charles & Keith, the angelic sound of Maxwell and the coverings of Laura Mercier. Next time, I hope you bless me with an angel who would knock me with his/her halo whenever I have horns coming out of my head at the sight of those many temptations.
Sincerely,
The Sinful Shopper
Grant me the serenity of not entering places like Tony Romas, Delicious and its decedents. My stomach is too humble for such heavenly food.
Dear God,
Grant me the protection from the temptations of Isetan. Forgive me as I am even a member of such group. Forgive my sins when I even took out my membership card at Robinson’s outlet. I have offended the Robinson’s employee.
Dear God,
Thank you for making me resists the lure of buying 5 pairs of shoes. I only bought one as I enter the heavenly kingdom of Charles & Keith. I couldn’t imagine a place overflowing with beautiful shoes at a 7th heaven’s price.
Dear God,
These days I have succumb to the calling of Rock Corner. Joss Stone whisper her soulful rhythm and blues in my ears last week. That sound “Free Me Up” is such a sinful melody. This week I got better by buying Maxwell, at least the chap talks about Pretty Wings. Such an angelic voice that you have bestowed on him.
Dear God,
Thanks for giving me a best friend by the name of Laura Mercier. She is expansive than my fellow Mac. However, she covers my eyes from the evils of bad cover up which I shall not mention here. I only had to buy her twice a year.
Dear God,
I admit, last night I succumb to the lurking of Isetan, to the beautiful creation of Charles & Keith, the angelic sound of Maxwell and the coverings of Laura Mercier. Next time, I hope you bless me with an angel who would knock me with his/her halo whenever I have horns coming out of my head at the sight of those many temptations.
Sincerely,
The Sinful Shopper
Monday, February 1, 2010
The story that gets me everytime!
I am half way to reading Surah Ali Imran.
Such a beautiful surah. I want to blog about the story of Imran, Hannah, Prophet Zakarriya and Maryam. However it is a long story.
In between I read the story of Heraclius and Abu Sufyan as narrated by Abu Hurrairah. Love that story so much. The Q & A session between Heraclius and Abu Sufyan was just amazing. It gets to me every time. I’ve read the story 3 times and never get bored at how intelligent both men were. However it did not state if Heraclius converted to Islam in the end.
Love the letter from Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. to Heraclius too. Every time I read it I thought MasyaAllah amazing! I need to memorize the Q&A session since it makes up such a great story.
Then I read a few stories before heading to bed from the Quran translation.
Love this Quote of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W as Narrated by Aishah:
“Do good deeds properly, sincerely and moderately, and receive good news because one's good deeds will not make him enter Paradise” They asked “Even You O Allah’s Messenger?”. He said “Even I, unless and until Allah Protects and Covers me from His Pardon and Mercy” Sahih Al Bukhari.
Something about that line- Calming, Humble, Beautiful.
What a humble and great leader He was, our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W.
Such a beautiful surah. I want to blog about the story of Imran, Hannah, Prophet Zakarriya and Maryam. However it is a long story.
In between I read the story of Heraclius and Abu Sufyan as narrated by Abu Hurrairah. Love that story so much. The Q & A session between Heraclius and Abu Sufyan was just amazing. It gets to me every time. I’ve read the story 3 times and never get bored at how intelligent both men were. However it did not state if Heraclius converted to Islam in the end.
Love the letter from Prophet Muhammad S.A.W. to Heraclius too. Every time I read it I thought MasyaAllah amazing! I need to memorize the Q&A session since it makes up such a great story.
Then I read a few stories before heading to bed from the Quran translation.
Love this Quote of Prophet Muhammad S.A.W as Narrated by Aishah:
“Do good deeds properly, sincerely and moderately, and receive good news because one's good deeds will not make him enter Paradise” They asked “Even You O Allah’s Messenger?”. He said “Even I, unless and until Allah Protects and Covers me from His Pardon and Mercy” Sahih Al Bukhari.
Something about that line- Calming, Humble, Beautiful.
What a humble and great leader He was, our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W.
Politician vs Diplomat
In HQ
Talking to M and new boss approached.
Boss: So Lyana, how’s ur branch doing?
Lyana: Good.. but you know holiday season things are a tad bit slow.
Boss: How’s the staff there?
Lyana: Good actually some are mobile on certain days but always a person to man the fort.
Boss: You ni politician la Lyana.
Lyana: Eh tak la, politician is all about self interest. I take care of both sides without taking any interest. Diplomat kut
Boss: LOL Smart! Tu la pasal dia boleh jadi host kita eh Mary.
Chatting
BraTT: woi Britney, aku dgr cite bagus, before that kena belanja
Lyana: Cheh BraTT, pagi2 dah mintak belanja.
BraTT: Cite hangat ni pasal you.
Lyana: Ok ok aku belanje..
*Secrets told*
BraTT: Kau ni politician betul la..
Lyana: Mana ada, diplomat la ooi!
You see the way I see it, a politician is One who shakes your hand before elections and your Confidence Later.
A diplomat is a person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip.
At least, a diplomat is nice enough to motivate you to look forward to something!
Hmmm.. but we all could agree that I am no states man. Can’t risk my Coach bag for heaven’s sake!
Talking to M and new boss approached.
Boss: So Lyana, how’s ur branch doing?
Lyana: Good.. but you know holiday season things are a tad bit slow.
Boss: How’s the staff there?
Lyana: Good actually some are mobile on certain days but always a person to man the fort.
Boss: You ni politician la Lyana.
Lyana: Eh tak la, politician is all about self interest. I take care of both sides without taking any interest. Diplomat kut
Boss: LOL Smart! Tu la pasal dia boleh jadi host kita eh Mary.
Chatting
BraTT: woi Britney, aku dgr cite bagus, before that kena belanja
Lyana: Cheh BraTT, pagi2 dah mintak belanja.
BraTT: Cite hangat ni pasal you.
Lyana: Ok ok aku belanje..
*Secrets told*
BraTT: Kau ni politician betul la..
Lyana: Mana ada, diplomat la ooi!
You see the way I see it, a politician is One who shakes your hand before elections and your Confidence Later.
A diplomat is a person who tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to the trip.
At least, a diplomat is nice enough to motivate you to look forward to something!
Hmmm.. but we all could agree that I am no states man. Can’t risk my Coach bag for heaven’s sake!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Clarity
Clarity is absolute.
Absolute enough to give you the strength.
Clarity moves you, in ways the encourage determination.
Clarity could come in various forms
-That line you heard from the mouth of someone significant.
-That song that empowers you to do more than just dancing.
-That paper you are about to sign
-That prayer you are about to make.
-That dream that you don't sleep over.
Clarity is like truth,
Absolute.
Certain.
Cruel.
Once clarity is achieved-
It gives you the strength to do one thing.
To ACT.
I should know..
Absolute enough to give you the strength.
Clarity moves you, in ways the encourage determination.
Clarity could come in various forms
-That line you heard from the mouth of someone significant.
-That song that empowers you to do more than just dancing.
-That paper you are about to sign
-That prayer you are about to make.
-That dream that you don't sleep over.
Clarity is like truth,
Absolute.
Certain.
Cruel.
Once clarity is achieved-
It gives you the strength to do one thing.
To ACT.
I should know..
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
L Y A N A
What makes me weak?
My insecurities
What makes me whole?
My Faith
What keeps me standing?
My Strength
What Makes me Compassionate?
My Heart
What Makes me Honest?
My Logic
What sustains my mind?
My Unconscious Self
What teaches me all my lessons?
My mistakes
What lift’s my head high?
My Pride Not Arrogance
What if I can’t go on?
Not a chance in hell
What makes me victorious?
My confidence
What makes me competent?
My experience
What makes me sensual?
I tease your 5 senses
What makes me beautiful?
My Sense of Self
What makes me a woman?
My Selflessness
Who says I need Love?
I do
What empowers me?
My Free Spirit
Who am I?
I AM MY OWN WOMAN.
My insecurities
What makes me whole?
My Faith
What keeps me standing?
My Strength
What Makes me Compassionate?
My Heart
What Makes me Honest?
My Logic
What sustains my mind?
My Unconscious Self
What teaches me all my lessons?
My mistakes
What lift’s my head high?
My Pride Not Arrogance
What if I can’t go on?
Not a chance in hell
What makes me victorious?
My confidence
What makes me competent?
My experience
What makes me sensual?
I tease your 5 senses
What makes me beautiful?
My Sense of Self
What makes me a woman?
My Selflessness
Who says I need Love?
I do
What empowers me?
My Free Spirit
Who am I?
I AM MY OWN WOMAN.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
My holidays in states
Setting off from KL-Tokyo-Ny
An hour before reaching New York
Reached the BEAUTIFUL Atlantic City, New Jersey
Spent a few days in New York for New Year
With my sisters at Times Square, New York. Love it!
Went on a roadtrip in our Ford Explorer across Pennsylvania-Ohio-Indiana
Had a day in Chicago, Illinois (my 2nd fav city in U.S after L.A)
Dined at the famous stuffed pizza at Giordano's
Back home, playing in the snow non-stop
Shopped , played with my sister's cat (Armani & Gucci), had loadsa crazy funny experiences & going to meet up with WMU college mates tomorrow.
All in all, it was amazing. I miss being in Michigan esp during winter.
Dragged the long flight home but well.. time is envious of my stay here :)
An hour before reaching New York
Reached the BEAUTIFUL Atlantic City, New Jersey
Spent a few days in New York for New Year
With my sisters at Times Square, New York. Love it!Went on a roadtrip in our Ford Explorer across Pennsylvania-Ohio-Indiana
Had a day in Chicago, Illinois (my 2nd fav city in U.S after L.A)
Dined at the famous stuffed pizza at Giordano's
Back home, playing in the snow non-stop
Shopped , played with my sister's cat (Armani & Gucci), had loadsa crazy funny experiences & going to meet up with WMU college mates tomorrow.
All in all, it was amazing. I miss being in Michigan esp during winter.
Dragged the long flight home but well.. time is envious of my stay here :)
Monday, January 4, 2010
A certain wish unfulfilled
I've slowed down a little bit on my reading.
However I still continue my daily zikirs and reading.
Read about Hubaidiyah Treaty in depth.
This vacation made me question a thing or two.
Perhaps You would have the answer for it.
Will continue finding answers for it.
InsyaAllah.
I bought about 5 pcs of clothes in preparation for the day i would wear tudung.
InsyaAllah
However I still continue my daily zikirs and reading.
Read about Hubaidiyah Treaty in depth.
This vacation made me question a thing or two.
Perhaps You would have the answer for it.
Will continue finding answers for it.
InsyaAllah.
I bought about 5 pcs of clothes in preparation for the day i would wear tudung.
InsyaAllah
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